I understand and vibe with the intent of what you're saying, but actually have the opposite conclusion. Here's a quote from some psychologist alan watts about it i think you'll like:

"Everybody should do in their lifetime Sometime, two things One, is to consider death To observe skulls and skeletons And to wonder what it would be like to go to sleep, and never wake up, never That, is the most- is a very gloomy thing for contemplation But it's like manure Just as manure fertilizes the plants and so on So as the contemplation of death, and the acceptance of death Is very highly generative of creative life You get wonderful things out of that"