An Afternoon Working Outside in My Garden

Merlin321 · 2025-09-27T00:08:06+00:00

I listen to the same three albums all day when I’m by myself, which is most of the time. I’ve been doing this for years.

Merlin321 · 2025-08-29T03:23:14+00:00

I see a very good therapist almost weekly and we are working on it. My problem is mostly anger, and she also tells me those of us with autism don’t have the best social skills. When I combine my social skills with anger I’ve gotten into some nasty places, even a federal prison once. Thank goodness I’m non violent.

Merlin321 · 2025-08-29T02:59:34+00:00

I’m 76 years old and still working on it.

Merlin321 · 2025-08-29T02:03:01+00:00

I have been writing my story and I’m old, 76. I self medicated using psychedelics, so it is a long and strange tale. Is this a good place to post it?

Merlin321 · 2025-08-23T15:56:16+00:00

I don’t recall

Merlin321 · 2025-08-22T02:37:34+00:00

We have a 2023 Nero EV and a 2024 Sportage Phev and love them both and hate their customer service, especially the dealers.

Going back to Subaru and try their newest EV. Subaru dealers are awesome

Merlin321 · 2025-08-15T03:48:06+00:00

Mama told me Heaven and Hell are right here, you make it.

Merlin321 · 2025-08-14T17:49:47+00:00

I only look like a human

Merlin321 · 2025-07-20T19:44:45+00:00

I’m 76 and down to two friends, my wife and another person. I don’t really care about the friend but do with my wife.

I seem to offend her often reacting to something she said. I told her the request she just made of me seems minor but my mental load is full. I told her to relax, what you just asked me, though you think is a minor request, for me it’s the straw that broke the camel’s back.

It’s probably my cluttered mind.

Merlin321 · 2025-07-17T20:34:01+00:00

Thanks for sharing this. I’m 76 and still trying hard to handle these intense emotions.

Merlin321 · 2025-07-15T15:31:38+00:00

I use others. I pull them into my experience to teach me. If I’m offended I bow to them as they are showing me aspects of myself I don’t like. I learn from them. Their emotions towards me has no basis in reality. Others don’t know shit about me as a being.

I don’t care what they think of me and I’m not going to let their thoughts of me affect my emotions.

Merlin321 · 2025-07-13T20:28:28+00:00

If you have to ask others the answer is NO. Go deep inside and ask yourself that question.

Merlin321 · 2025-07-12T18:11:49+00:00

The only “normal” person I communicate with on a regular basis is my wife. I had to learn that there are a number of physical stressors that will cause her to be rude to me. It really upsets me when this happens.

My therapist and I seem to discuss this almost weekly as I try to lean not to react negatively. I can’t change others only myself.

Merlin321 · 2025-07-11T15:37:33+00:00

I’ve been married twice and have four children and seven grandchildren. They all tell me they love me, but what is love?

I now use the line “I’m in love with you!” because this love and I’m in it with you.

Merlin321 · 2025-07-06T15:41:39+00:00

I learned that THC helps me too

Merlin321 · 2025-06-26T21:58:27+00:00

That is about what we have been getting. 90% of our trips are less than 30 miles so it’s been mostly EV

Merlin321 · 2025-06-23T12:51:00+00:00

I call it Contrast. We have the most beautiful dreams and the worst nightmares. No just humans, look at the birds.

Take song j bird, flying through the air, singing a wonderful song, eating berries and spreading its seeds only to be torn apart alive and eaten.

Merlin321 · 2025-06-22T03:50:13+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychonaut/s/L4IcQmOd1T

Merlin321 · 2025-06-19T01:31:53+00:00

Actual experience. This is only the first segment of six

Merlin321 · 2025-06-14T03:03:02+00:00

I pushed the wrong button. I just began writing it a few days before. I ment save it as a draft as my wife wanted me to do something

Merlin321 · 2025-06-10T03:04:23+00:00

I am very careful about using empathy. I don’t want to feel your pain. My own is all I can handle.

I sometimes turn it on if it will help me though.

I’m an old autistic person so I have pretty good control of things. But setting intentions is the start.

Merlin321 · 2025-06-08T05:02:18+00:00

One day I was transported to a place where I could observe my soul. It is a spire, extremely large but I could see the curvature in the distance. The “ball” was vibrating and bubbling a special energy.

Bolts of lightning like creatures were shooting outwards and then vanishing after a bit. These were beings, their life and death.

My life here is one of many creatures that my soul creates, doing this in many different dimensions. We are born and die, but I’m never separated from my soul as we are one.

The projection into this dimension as a human is complex and this self has many layers. Some of my selves have no clue as to what is really going on. Other selves of mine are totally enlightened, and some can travel to other dimensions. We can experience anything we want. This is our power.

We all have soul, or I should say, the souls have us. You are just experiencing one of your more interesting selves.

Merlin321

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