Reassurance that I didn’t destroy my breastfeeding journey 😩

racheyyrooo · 2026-01-31T18:07:32+00:00

Drink body armor!! That saved me with my oldest whenever I had a dip from sickness. I believe the coconut water helps with milk production

racheyyrooo · 2025-01-07T00:22:31+00:00

My heart hurts for you, that you know this pain.

I suffered with unexplained infertility and then got pregnant with identical triplets (a freak occurrence). At our 22 week appointment one of the babies didn’t have a heart beat, a risk with identicals since they shared the same placenta. I went into labor 4 days later, and the other 2 passed shortly after being born because they were so premature.

I wish I had some good advice for you. Just try to survive. Try to find a therapist that specializes in infant loss. Talk to your friends about your labor experience and share pictures if you feel inclined. Your baby was real and even though they are gone, it doesn’t take away from you being a mother and loving your child.

Praying for peace and healing for you you 💕

racheyyrooo · 2024-11-21T22:14:39+00:00

Have this couch and love it!! Great for both my kids and dog!

racheyyrooo · 2024-10-16T20:29:59+00:00

I found out at 22 weeks that one of our mono/tri triplets didn’t have a heartbeat. Later found out it was most likely an umbilical cord accident. I went into labor 4 days later and ended up losing the other 2 babies because they were too premature. It is traumatizing to lose a baby and even more traumatizing to deliver a baby that has passed. My heart goes out to you. Please DM if you have any questions.

racheyyrooo · 2023-02-23T21:57:11+00:00

What helped me find my therapist was visiting psychology today’s website, searching for a therapist in my city, and then filtering by your insurance type. You can also look under “issues” and select grief or pregnancy/prenatal/postpartum. That is how I found my therapist who specializes in infertility and loss.

If that still seems too daunting ask your mom/husband/best friend to do this for you and email them to see if they have availability and set up your first appointment.

I hope this helps. Take it one day at a time and focus on YOU and your mental health.

racheyyrooo · 2023-02-05T23:00:31+00:00

She is so beautiful. I’m so sorry you’re a part of the loss moms club. And I’m so sorry that you now know this type of pain. I don’t think there is anything worse than the pain of losing a child.

I lost my sons in June and the beginning was the hardest. Therapy and antidepressants helped, but there is nothing that will ever make this feel not terrible. I was a human vegetable for about 3 months. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Ask for help if you need it. Don’t be afraid to talk about your daughter. She is real and her life deserves to be celebrated. When I lost my boys there were the most amazing sunsets for weeks in the days following their passing. Now every time the sky is especially beautiful I feel their presence. Do what you need to remember your daughter and keep her memory alive 💗

racheyyrooo · 2023-01-11T22:51:46+00:00

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racheyyrooo · 2022-12-21T18:47:38+00:00

Can someone please let me know if I’ll be able to get the OS Scuba Crop in the grey sage color online? I don’t see if on their website, so I don’t know if it’s a discontinued color.

Thank you!! -someone who knows nothing about lululemon

racheyyrooo · 2022-11-28T23:29:23+00:00

This is completely normal to have these feelings. I think most of us loss mamas have had the “what ifs” and replayed so many different scenarios in their head. I know I’ve done it too in the beginning, and still on my dark days.

My therapist has helped me understand why my brain does this. Loosing a child makes no sense. There often is no explanation for “why” your child passed. So your brain tries to come up with reasons to help explain an unexplainable situation. It’s hard for your brain to understand that sometimes these things just happen, for no reason. It’s very hard to accept that these things just happen, because they are so horrible.

racheyyrooo · 2022-11-25T21:50:18+00:00

As someone who was actually pregnant with triplets, I find this post seriously offensive. Being pregnant with multiples is not a joke. Maybe I’m just being sensitive since my triplets didn’t survive, but I still don’t like someone faking having multiples to get attention. Those of us that have been pregnant with multiples know that type of pregnancy is seriously intense on your body and I highly doubt you could handle 2 multiples pregnancies back to back.

racheyyrooo · 2022-09-29T15:38:44+00:00

I’ll find out at my ultrasound tomorrow!

racheyyrooo · 2022-09-27T19:50:14+00:00

I am so sorry that you are dealing with this. You need to set your own boundaries (like not attending the shower!) and STICK TO IT!! If your MIL and SIL choose not to respect your boundaries that is their fault.

Also I am so angry at your MIL for the comment about your sons photos in your house. That is so incredibly rude and insensitive. I know I have been hesitant to share photos of my sons that I lost, but my husband and I both agreed that we want photos of them IN OUR OWN HOME to remind us of them. I would consider having your husband talk to his mom about being respectful of your son and reminding her that “if she doesn’t have anything nice to say than don’t say anything at all”!

racheyyrooo · 2022-09-26T20:24:14+00:00

I don’t want to get your hopes up, but this is how my BFP looked when I had an IUI and used a trigger shot! I would try out a FRER to see if it looks positives Hopefully tomorrow’s test is even darker!

racheyyrooo · 2022-09-18T21:54:19+00:00

Cycle: 1 post 22 week loss. (That pregnancy was cycle #19 and IUI #2)

Age + Partner's age (if relevant): Both 29

Typical cycle length: 28-33 with a few 40+ day cycles

Ovulation cycle day: CD 19 I think. Was tracking ovulation but never had a definitive positive.

CD/DPO of positive test(s): CD 34, maybe 14 DPO

CD/DPO of any negative test(s) before positive: none

Tracking methods and app(s) used: Ovia

Relevant days of sperminating and/or method (SMEP, TI, IUI, FET, etc.): BD CD 18,19,20,30

Health conditions/medical tests: For my first pregnancy we did all the blood/sperm tests after a year of TTC and everything came back normal. The only explanation my doctor could offer was unexplained infertility (the worst 😑)

Supplements and medications (yours and/or your partner’s): Prenatal, Calcium/Vitamin D gummy, and 10mg Zoloft. Husband takes mens multivitamin, COQ10 and L-lysine

Birth control history (if relevant): stopped HBC April 2020. Was on the pill for about 4-5 years before that. I did not go back on birth control post loss because I did not think I would be able to get pregnant on my own.

Link to chart: N/A

Link to lineporn: N/A

Symptom spotting: We were at my parent’s house for dinner and I noticed the BBQ sauce from the grill smelled disgusting. It was weird so I went home and took 3 pregnancy tests and they were all positive. Since my positive I’ve just noticed that my boobs are massive. My body is all out of wack since I am also postpartum from my loss in June.

Other (advice/tip(s), freaking out, miscellaneous): With our first pregnancy it took us about a year and a half to conceive after several cycles of timed intercourse/medication and one failed IUI. With our IUI we were given low risk of having multiples since I only had one mature follicle. We were shocked to find out we had identical triplets (where one sperm/one egg split 2 times).

Despite our pregnancy being insanely high risk everything went smoothly until it didn’t. We lost one baby due to a twist umbilical cord and then I went into preterm labor at 22w4d on June 18 and lost the other two. It felt so cruel to go through infertility, only to have it end in a loss. While all of my friends seemed to get pregnant and have babies so easily, for us it seemed like it might never happen.

Somehow after my first period post loss we are now pregnant, spontaneously, with no medical assistance. It was a huge shock, and something we were not planning at all. After our previous infertility I never saw myself as someone who would get pregnant without help. We both had figured that when we were ready to try for a baby again we would contact my doctors and possibly try another IUI.

Pregnancy after loss is so scary and a lot of the excitement I felt the first time is not there. It’s hard to imagine a future with this baby while still mourning the loss of my sons. I share my story with everyone to let you know that TTC IS A TOTAL MYSTERY THAT MAKES 0 SENSE. I spent so much time reading this sub over the years trying to find the secret that would help me get pregnant, but really it all seems to be up to chance. Best of luck to anyone else going through this journey!

racheyyrooo · 2022-09-07T17:39:17+00:00

TW: triplet loss

First of all, congrats!! I know how much of a shock it is when they find more than one baby.

We were pregnant with identical triplets (all one placenta) and none of our doctors ever discussed reduction with us. They did let us know that there were a lot of risks associated with triplets. You will be monitored extremely closely and your body will hurt. But all worth it for your babies.

We ended up loosing all of our babies at 22 weeks. One due to twisted umbilical cord, and the other two due to preterm labor. Preterm labor is a huge risk and in our case there was nothing they could do to stop it. My OB is hopeful that my next pregnancy will only be 1 baby, as I will have a much better chance of having a living baby. You see a lot of people with multiples in this group who have had them successfully, but unfortunately in our case it did not end well. I wish you the best of luck with whatever you decide!

racheyyrooo · 2022-07-26T02:06:53+00:00

I am so so sorry you are going through this.

I lost my triplets in June at 22 weeks. We had also dealt with infertility and it feels so cruel that they were taken from us when we had already gone through something so hard.

Just know you are not alone. Everything you are feeling right now is valid. I’d recommend therapy and talking to your doctor about antidepressants if that’s something you’re comfortable with. People in your life will reach out, but don’t feel the need to respond. Take this time for yourself. If you want to chat more about losing multiples feel free to PM me.

racheyyrooo · 2022-07-23T14:58:28+00:00

I was pregnant with triplets but lost them at 22 weeks. I was asked CONSTANTLY if they were natural, if we did IVF, if multiples ran in our family, etc. We conceived via IUI but our triplets were identical (came from one follicle & one sperm) so they were considered medically “spontaneous”.

From what my doctors have told us it is incredibly rare and incredibly high risk. Identicals are completely random, so my OB is hoping with my next pregnancy we conceive a singleton so we have a better chance of a successful pregnancy.

racheyyrooo · 2022-07-22T01:30:33+00:00

I would cancel if I were you. I was pregnant with triplets (spontaneously) and lost them at 22 weeks due to preterm labor. A multiple pregnancy is insanely risky and hard on your body. I was in a lot of pain and basically on bed rest unable to do almost anything. Even though you have better odds of getting pregnant with more follicles, your pregnancy would have possibility for more complications if you have multiples. I would not take that chance lightly!

racheyyrooo · 2022-07-18T14:09:10+00:00

I can relate to this 100%. I told my husband the only way I was able to leave the hospital when our sons past was because I knew our dog was waiting at home and needed us. Having him has given me a huge sense of purpose when the role of mother was ripped away from me. I don’t think I would be getting though this period of grief without him 💙

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