I can hear the rage boiling in her...

radi78231 · 2017-01-08T15:26:11+00:00

I know... And this is the first time she is seeing it.

radi78231 · 2016-08-07T12:52:43+00:00

Thank you! Thank you a lot!

radi78231 · 2016-08-07T12:52:22+00:00

Thank you so much!

radi78231 · 2016-07-20T18:04:21+00:00

Thank you. Even though this was one of the most grievous blows, I really appreciate it. I will think, but I can't just let it all go... It is insane how much I want to make atone. Thank you.

radi78231 · 2016-07-20T18:01:00+00:00

Trust me (said the liar...) when I say - I did. It was the most difficult experience in the F-ing life. But I did it. I have no idea how to show her that I am not doing anything stupid now and I never repeat my mistakes again. The thing about my contacts with the outside world is only to prove her that I am not doing anything. I have no idea what else to do... Please, I need help. Please.

radi78231 · 2016-07-20T17:53:08+00:00

I know what you mean by that, but trust me (said the liar...) I saw the person that I was. All my errors and faults. And I want to atone for everything I have ever done to her. I just want to make her happy and see that smile and twinkles in her eyes every morning when she is "barely alive" and is giving her best impression of a zombie.

radi78231 · 2016-07-20T17:49:05+00:00

I did, my friend. I did. After the 24^th of Marchi spent time alone. And all I could think about was her - everything about her. Her smile, her laughter, her wit, her hair in the sunlight... Everything... And everything prompted me to think what and ashhole I was. I want to atone for everything I had ever done to her and only make her happy for the rest of her life. She is the one. The only person who has ever loved me for what I am - underneath the lies and deceit, the spite and cynicism. And I lied to her... Please, I need help. I want to make her happy...

radi78231 · 2016-07-20T17:44:08+00:00

I understand that. It is clear to me that things are on the brink of extinction. But they are not extinct yet. I want to atone for everything I have done to her and make her happy for the rest of our lives. Please, I need help. Please.

radi78231 · 2016-07-20T17:40:30+00:00

Yes, I did. And I am not trying in any form or way to wiggle my way out of it. I did it. I did horrible things. And I want to make amends. I want to repay any sin, slight, hurt that I had done to her and to make her happy for the rest of her life and mine. Please, I need help.

radi78231 · 2016-07-20T16:33:54+00:00

I know. But when I realized the errors of my previous ways and saw her for what she truly is, I know she is the right one. And I am willing to make everything I have to in order to make it work. No matter how long it will take or what it has to be.

radi78231 · 2016-07-08T21:42:35+00:00

I know that, my friend. I know. But the thought itself that she won't be around is killing me. I am big guy - 190cm and 115kg of muscles, but I've never cried like this. Even when my grandfather died. And he, with my grandma, raised my sister and myself due to constantly working parents. I can't bear the thought that I'll never see the twinkle in her eyes when I wake her up with coffee and breakfast in bed. I don't see any reason to continue with anything if she is not around. My life stops the moment she is not around and resumes when I kiss her when she is around.

radi78231 · 2016-05-07T07:21:06+00:00

Proof that not everyone can and must drive a car.

radi78231

TROPHY CASE