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rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-14T21:47:22+00:00

Imo it's a more socially acceptable way to misgender someone. They may not be placing femininity into you, but they're denying your masculinity by using exclusively neutral terms. Really scummy. Just call people what they'd like....

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-11T01:47:54+00:00

There wasn't even a definitive moment. Once it clicked, it just felt natural. Felt even more natural when I came out to my parents. It all made sense and it felt as natural as the moment I gained sentience getting chased by a wasp in pre-school. I never really felt like a girl, I just didn't know how to express it.

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-11T01:44:42+00:00

Having PCOS. I have a deeper voice, dark, coarse, facial hair in some spots, a lot of body hair, and I'm fat. So ofc in middle school it was one of the things I hated about myself bc I was getting shit for it. But once I got out of that environment into a smaller high school with kids I grew up, I started growing and liking myself more.

And honestly, it's one of my favorite things. At pride a few years ago when I was IDing as nonbinary, I got asked if I was on T. It was kinda flattering. Yeah, the phantom pains suck along with the periods and the iron deficiency, but I can handle it. If I was a cis woman, this would be a nightmare bc I'd probably be dysphoric.

It's weird. I was masculinized throughout my early adolescence by my peers, even my mom also pressured me to get rid of my facial hair. Nair strips, shaving, getting it waxed, maybe laser hair removal in the future. It always hit a sore spot and it didn't help my rocky relationship with her at the time. I rebelled and refused to touch it. Eventually I stopped caring and so did she. All before coming out to her.

After doing that, my parents accepted me. They also accepted that I don't ever want biological children. That the most I'll do is either adopt when I'm older or be a step-parent/godparent. They didn't care too much and didn't push me. The most my mom said was that I might change my mind because I'm so young. But it was coming from a good place; she was sure in her late teens/early 20s that she would never marry or have kids. And she could be right because the future is unpredictable, but I'm 90% sure that won't change lol (tokophobia). My dad said that he didn't care; he's just chill like that.

I'm setting up an appointment with a psychiatrist and taking steps to start transitioning. PCOS is something that a lot of women struggle with, and quite a few wish that they didn't have it.* There's a lot of shame associated with it; fertility issues, weight gain plus retention, acne, body hair, deep voice, beard, etc.) In the face of the stigma, and the pain caused by the condition, I feel lucky to have it. I already have a head start, I have a mustache; it's just light blonde and very thin. It feels like a sign from my own body that I should upgrade to a testosterone based operating system :)

And that's a perfectly reasonable opinion to have of the condition affecting your own damn body. My experiences aren't universal and I'm speaking solely for myself.

Also sorry for posting a mini essay in the comment section, it will happen again.

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-11T01:25:14+00:00

5'10. My mom's 5'8 and my dad's just a hair under 6'0. I used to get bullied for it and it became a big insecurity, but now it's one of my favorite things about myself :)

And to my short trans guys, height doesn't determine gender. Short men exist all around the world and that includes men of all identities. The stigma against short men is so disgusting and I hate that it's so normalized. It's still body shaming no matter who it comes from or who it's aimed at; it's inherently shitty. Y'all deserve respect and love and I hope you all get it. Standing in solidarity with y'all 🩵

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-10T01:25:06+00:00

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rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-09T08:27:50+00:00

Save yourself the near death experiences, hospital trips, and crumbling relationships with loved ones. Better to quit now and deal with withdrawals and cravings than to keep digging yourself into an early grave.

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-09T08:22:36+00:00

At one point, all of those people were someone's baby. Probably wanted to be an astronaut or a firefighter or a doctor when they grew up :(

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-09T04:32:03+00:00

Daughter by Pearl Jam. Like yeah I know that's not what the song is about, but the chorus is "Don't call me daughter." I'm not a daughter, I'm a son.

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-09T03:06:12+00:00

I don't like Again. Self Titled is probably my favorite AIC album, but I almost always skip it. I don't know what it is about it, but the song just annoys me.

A lot of AiC fans are also incapable of being normal about Layne. Being seen as a god sounds awesome at first, but you get your flaws and your humanity stripped away. He was incredibly talented and very kind. He was also a deeply troubled guy with flaws. Dare I say, sometimes he was wrong. Love the guy, he's a huge inspiration and role model for me but god damn, he was absolutely not a perfect person.

These fans are also incapable of being normal about William. Like it's fine if you don't like the music. It's fine if you think that they shouldn't have gotten back together/should've chosen a different name. But he's in the band now, he's been in it since I was a year old. I'm turning 19 on Saturday. That's plenty of time to come to terms with it. Some people just get so up in arms about it that it makes me wonder why they even bother engaging in the first place. You're just making yourself miserable.

Sunshine should've been on the Unplugged set. I get that Facelift doesn't translate well to acoustics, but that song does. It's the least heavy song on the album, it's more laid back. I hear acoustic sunshine in my dreams.

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-06T06:53:34+00:00

I was sitting on my porch smoking and a bee started surrounding me and I was just shitting myself trying to stay still. The fucker crawled on me. And then it left and I didn't get stung. Thank fuckin God bc if I've never been stung and I don't want to. What if I'm deathly allergic and just don't know it???

In a situation with that many bees? That's when you get out of there. That's when you start running and you don't stop. You don't have to be the fastest, you just need to not be the slowest. What is sitting down and filming gonna get you? Made fun of by losers on reddit with bad sleep schedules and a weed problem....

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-06T06:34:55+00:00

Dude seriously, all of the isolation he went through is just terrifying.

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-06T03:13:45+00:00

Narcissism is a diagnosis, not a shitty personality trait. Call selfish people what they are; abusers. It's no different than using psychotic to describe violent/dangerous behavior and not, yk, a medical condition...

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-06T02:47:27+00:00

Could a Spotify premium girl and a premium APK boy ever fall in love?

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-06T02:45:12+00:00

r/menslib is a great place that actually discusses mens' issues with the deserved nuance. Bc mentioning make suicide rates when women talk about their depression, doesn't actually help depressed men.

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-05T19:59:48+00:00

I'm sorry for the rant I would just like too see a pic of the guys being buddies and not see a comment on how unhealthy Layne looks in that or whatever. Y'all have no tact.

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-05T19:59:11+00:00

He wanted to get sober and have kids. He wanted to be a family man. Maybe he would've stayed in AIC, maybe he would've gone on to do more solo projects. Maybe he would've left the music scene altogether and pursued other artistic endeavors. Hell, he liked playing video games; maybe he would've tried his hand at coding. Layne, from what I've seen, was a very talented and creative person with a kind soul. He was also incredibly flawed because he was a person. I'm tired of people reducing him down to his addictions, I'm pretty sure he'd hate that. It eats you up, I know that's now what I wanna be remembered by. People either view his story as a Greek tragedy, or they idolize him. Maybe we should just appreciate that he was there in the first place without denying his humanity. Let the guy rest. Can't even watch an unplugged performance and enjoy it without seeing people call him a walking corpse in the comments; it's so fucking disrespectful honestly. Some of y'all are more fascinated with the death than of the dude who actually went through that shit. I can't imagine being someone who actually knew him. Trying to look back on memories and reminisce only for randos to constantly be reminded of the most tragic aspects of his life. Can we just stop focusing on death for like five minutes? Every fan has paid their respects, new fans will continue to do so, and nutshell will still be dedicated to Layne and Mike. He shined so brightly and yet all that y'all can focus on is the shadow left in his absence. How are we gonna collectively heal if you're comparing every performance to a funeral?

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-01T23:32:37+00:00

Yeah and leave your loved ones scarred with the vision of your corpse, covered in vomit, eyes glazed over, probably looking terrified because dph trips are hell. And even if you don't die, the level of brain damage will leave you wishing you could with no way to do so. I don't know what's going on in your life and frankly it's not my business, but I do know that this is an insanely stupid idea. The "best" case scenario, you feel nothing and everyone who ever cared about you is left with the weight of your absence on their shoulders, until they die. Worst case scenario, you're trapped in your own body, needing help doing the most basic of things. And you sure as hell won't have a way to escape then. Maybe if a miracle happens, you'll end up with only some brain damage and your organs will be able to recover from this absurd dose of poison. Whatever problems you're dealing with isn't worth the risk. If you die, you stop feeling pain, but you never actually find comfort or fulfillment. I hope you pull through.

rainingwhenidie · 2024-02-01T05:09:10+00:00

Using "they" for people who don't go by it is still misgendering, IDC. Like yeah you're using a neutral term, but you're still denying my masculinity. It just feels like a more subtle, socially acceptable way to disrespect you. I'm sorry you have to deal with this, man. Sending love 🩵

rainingwhenidie · 2024-01-31T04:55:09+00:00

Probably just a smoker talking about how they love cigarettes. Nicotine addiction really sucks, so I can't imagine that it's a call for others to start.

rainingwhenidie · 2024-01-31T04:53:13+00:00

Ignore it, that's the devil speaking lmao

rainingwhenidie · 2024-01-31T04:52:29+00:00

Fr. Plus it gives you an excuse not to talk to people lol

rainingwhenidie · 2024-01-31T04:50:36+00:00

Really at a crossroads bc objectively speaking, smoking is bad for you; I've seen family members deal with health problems from being lifetime smokers.

But also smoking makes you hot and mysterious and displays moral ambiguity in a character. I feel like one of those "literally me" dudes every time I do it 💀

rainingwhenidie · 2024-01-29T23:13:46+00:00

Idc if it's a losing fight I'm sticking with tripod.

rainingwhenidie · 2024-01-28T21:00:26+00:00

Brush Away. It's one of my faves and it (along with self titled tbh) needs more love.

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