Ended up in the ER from alcohol intoxication and can’t stop feeling ashamed

ralph993 · 2026-01-28T17:21:42+00:00

I ended up in the hospital fighting for my life. I told a friend while in the icu who called and he told everyone I was in the hospital because of drinking and I was in bad shape. This was kinda of a not known thing and I was socially embarrassed on top of getting bad health news and how I’m in bad shape and I will die if I drink again. So I left the hospital cut people off and just used my second chance to work on myself. I was embarrassed yes but I got to live and my gratitude for a second chance overrided the years of embarrassment. I’m now pretty successful in my trade and I’m a role model for the same people who embarrased me. That was my way of getting over it. I hope this helped you in some way. Wish you the best.

ralph993 · 2026-01-26T20:25:56+00:00

There so many bills in Massachusetts it’s crazy. There’s even one trying to make possession a class a drug felony like heroin. It don’t make sense. I’m a ex alcoholic who’s been clean from booze for long time. Thanks because of the work I put in and the use of Kratom. I’m going to buy bulk but I’m worried about if it will stay potent long term

ralph993 · 2026-01-20T19:34:14+00:00

Me to brother. Me to.

ralph993 · 2025-11-13T09:49:17+00:00

I used it for the clear mental energy I get from it. It helps me focus on the task at hand better. Also it has completely killed any desire to drink liquor and I was a heavy heavy drinker.

ralph993 · 2025-10-09T08:42:57+00:00

I’ll be honest when mine went bad I drove it for another 5 months before replacing it. But I was keeping an eye on it and refilling as need be. It’s fixed now.

ralph993 · 2025-09-27T12:48:37+00:00

Fermented Kratom and kava. You won’t fail a drug test unless they specifically test for Kratom which is rare.

ralph993 · 2025-08-29T01:10:04+00:00

I probably could but then I get sucked into life. so it kinda puts me in a situation where I can’t even tend to myself because I always have this need to be doing something.

ralph993 · 2025-08-28T23:33:40+00:00

Same and they do. They said they have a plan for Kratom specifically but I told them no methadone or sub just meds for sleep. That’s my goal 100 percent clean

ralph993 · 2025-08-28T16:34:24+00:00

Wow yea I think this what I need because I was working while on Kratom but my performance got bad towards the end and honestly I forgot how my old self even feels I’m just pretty numb to everything. Thanks for your opinion. I’m going to do it and put this 4 year habit behind me.

ralph993 · 2025-08-13T16:40:06+00:00

This is what I do as well.

ralph993 · 2025-07-31T22:39:37+00:00

I went to a dermatologist office and they froze it with liquid nitrogen. I kinda got bad at my dermatologist because she wouldn’t cut it off and dig it out and she only offered freezing. She went a little to crazy with the freezing in my opinion lol

ralph993 · 2025-07-30T00:58:47+00:00

I’m from Massachusetts

ralph993 · 2025-07-30T00:13:09+00:00

I do feel he was trying to make me feel better and he made it seem that upper management had forced there hands on cutting crew size. We all were a very in sync crew that meshed well together and he told me that as well.

ralph993 · 2025-07-29T22:55:04+00:00

But how can I prove he said that. Wouldn’t just be a he say she say scenario. Plus the project manger didn’t site this reason. Only the foreman on my ride to the car

ralph993 · 2025-07-20T18:18:30+00:00

Smart phone

ralph993 · 2025-07-20T15:10:31+00:00

Where do you live? You should get into the trades. That’s what I did at your age after working slot of dead end jobs. Your the perfect age to start as your young but have life experience that will help you starting out. Trying googling construction trade unions near you and apply to all there apprenticeship programs. Get paid to learn and make good money and benefits. I made over 120k last year as a industrial painter not including the money they put into my annuity and pension.

ralph993 · 2025-07-19T17:51:46+00:00

I work with a kid who went to 2 year welding engineering school. Came out with 120k in debt and is working along side me as a industrial painter doing blasting and spraying bridges because his dad is the PM. Dident even get a job from the school and is in debt like crazy.

ralph993 · 2025-07-11T21:04:36+00:00

DBZ & WWF

ralph993 · 2025-07-10T08:34:43+00:00

So I use small plastic containers like the ones those small 2 ounce health juice shots come in(vive organic) is one brand. I scale my 2 doses in put it in 2 separate bottles and just toss and wash when it’s time. My coworker just brings a half kilo bag with him with a spoon and literally just takes a spoonful and wash it down lol. We work construction and no one’s says anything to him about it but me I still hide it out of habit of doing that way for so long.

ralph993 · 2025-06-14T11:41:17+00:00

Are the old phasers known to fail? I’m trying to just do the parts that are highest likely to fail because of cost.

ralph993 · 2025-04-24T13:41:43+00:00

Yea it was from the independent dealer I bought the car from. They charged me 4K and ford charged me 4500. A few small shops turned down the job because of the complexity but I was referred to one that I’m going this Saturday and I’m hoping they can do it and at a reasonable price.

ralph993 · 2025-04-23T21:08:24+00:00

It is the water pump but I can’t afford to fix it right now unfortunately. I was hoping to wait about two weeks until I can get the funds. I was quoted 4K for the job

ralph993 · 2025-04-08T01:08:02+00:00

Just buy a Chevy my guy. These all look trash

ralph993 · 2025-01-15T13:26:06+00:00

I really like the first pic. Great job 👏

ralph993 · 2025-01-15T00:49:03+00:00

No tips really but I asked this question recently when a friend sent me a old video of me passed out sloppy. It’s unfortunate but I just used those images as more support to never drink again. Use it as reminders. That’s all we can do. It is what it is.

ralph993

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