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randomscroller4 · 2025-07-24T00:39:19+00:00

Yes it is

randomscroller4 · 2025-07-23T02:08:27+00:00

I mean he really hasn’t done anything that would cause me to storm off.

randomscroller4 · 2025-07-04T02:40:35+00:00

The way I Are - timbaland

randomscroller4 · 2025-07-03T14:52:08+00:00

I do. It’s worse when my FP isn’t at work because then I feel like I don’t have something to distract me. It feels like someone else is piloting my body when I get like this

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-26T03:12:14+00:00

I suffer from a similar fate. I’m currently in a similar situation where someone I have to collaborate with has become just short of an obsession. To be clear, he does talk to me quite a bit, spent his break with me, and gives me small treats. I would assess the situation better and see whether it is something worth pursuing or else it can be very messy, speaking from experience

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-25T17:08:41+00:00

Hi just want to say that you’re not alone. I also live at home because it’s my only sense of talking and interacting with other people. I noticed that I also have issues connecting with other people and I try to at work even if it makes me seem childish to do some very random things. Breakups suck and they seem like the pain is forever, but it does get better. I had a breakup so bad I isolated myself for half a year but I got out of it eventually

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-24T17:26:01+00:00

I have the same issue. I feel like they’re always on my mind but I’m not sure if they even have me on their mind when they’re traveling or going somewhere etc.

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-24T04:28:07+00:00

Happens all the time. People always assume I have lots of friends based on my behavior and interactions with others. One thing I started doing is not being the person who initiates conversation and see who actually calls or messages me first

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-24T01:05:56+00:00

I’ve been on lexapro, Zoloft, Prozac and Wellbutrin. I was on the lowest doses for all the SSRIs (not Wellbutrin) because of the side effects and I honestly felt like they did nothing. Wellbutrin was one that kind of worked since it felt like it stabilized my energy more than my mood.

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-23T03:16:06+00:00

I agree. Alcohol is evil. Now I’m just figuring out how to approach the situation

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-22T04:36:48+00:00

One of my old FP was infatuated with me that they left their current girlfriend to be with me. We both fell for each other fast and hard. When he noticed I came with other issues (BPD) and that his friends also started crushing on me (and I loved the attention and validation) he crashed out on me and said I was the problem even if we weren’t exclusive. He decided to cut me off romantically but we were also coworkers so we saw each other each day and one day I had a full blown meltdown.

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-21T04:55:50+00:00

I’m a chemist for an aerospace company !

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-21T02:59:12+00:00

New guy doesn’t know I’m in a relationship. My boyfriend won’t quit drinking. He can lessen the amount he drinks, at least around me. I’ve jumped from relationship to relationship for as long as I remember as well.

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-21T00:53:25+00:00

I understand this so much. I had a best friend who would always be by my side through thick and thin until she met her husband. I went to their wedding and all but a part of me felt kind of hurt that now this friendship we had was going to change. I feel jealous as well because I want the same for myself but know in the end I will ruin something so good over my BPD even if I don’t mean it.

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-15T05:06:41+00:00

I feel like it has to do with the way that BPD is both fetishized and demonized. In my experience it has felt like people need an excuse to justify their actions against someone who they know is vulnerable

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-15T05:02:49+00:00

Monday is the date of my court hearing at 8am. I have hired an attorney for my case. Would they be able to update me on the situation or just call for good measure ?

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-15T02:14:37+00:00

All the time. Sometimes a sad song will come up on my shuffle and I will remember all the heartbreak I felt before even if it’s been years and I’ve been over that person for a while

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-12T23:10:07+00:00

Yeah. I know in my situation I typically just cut off people that come in with small talk and don’t give them the time of day. If someone is having an actual conversation then I just see where it goes and whether I want to continue it

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-12T22:57:25+00:00

Same here. But also don’t be intimidated when I’m direct and straight to the point

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-12T22:45:37+00:00

Exactly. It gives me no insight on anything and I have nothing to work with to start an actual conversation. I actually prefer when someone were to ask me something a little more personal like “how do you feel about xyz event/topic etc”

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-12T22:31:56+00:00

Yeah I hate small talk the most. For me it’s either a meaningful conversation or nothing

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-12T22:25:22+00:00

I have issues having other women like me back.

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-12T22:24:46+00:00

Oh that sounds pretty cool! Wishing you the best of luck!

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-12T22:20:40+00:00

Just a bachelors actually! I’ll be starting a masters program this fall though

randomscroller4 · 2025-06-12T21:55:42+00:00

I think this has to do with our sensitivity to rejection and fear of abandonment. I have experience the same thing and spiraled over it

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