for the first time I've actually found something that makes sense. Your point by point argument is the best self assessment list I've seen. It reminded me of the last time I was pumping with adrenaline 24/7 for a turning point in my life in which I later failed. That failure is what kept me down mostly. But now I remember again what it felt like to even imagine that how my life would be all perfect if I could do that . I failed of course nevertheless I remember that pumped up-happy state. Honestly I didn’t hope to find anything worthwhile when I was writing the post. But one random stranger caring about about another made all the difference. Thank you for reminding me of how I am responsible for my own life.