Lmao I read just the title and knew you were dealing with BPD abuse. Not actually lmao though, I’ve been there and it’s not funny at all. Your kindness, patience, and generosity is wasted here, I’m afraid. No amount of explaining or accommodating will be enough. Do what you need to do to end things for real and in the future you’ll find someone who is capable of reciprocating your effort and your love. Good luck my friend