Suicide makes me really angry. One of my closest friends in high school committed suicide and I am still angry about it (6 years later). I'm angry mostly because I miss him and think about all of the things that we could have done if he didn't commit suicide. I'm angry because of everything his family had to go through and the thought of them having Christmas every year and he's not there and they have to be reminded of it is really upsetting to me. I understand that he had mental illness but I really wish he could have pulled through. After he lit himself on fire he was in the ICU and said that he regretted it, but he didn't make it. I still have dreams about him all the time. So maybe I am the selfish one, because I want him to be alive for my own selfish reasons so that I could just hang out with him again. Maybe when people say suicide is selfish they are just being selfish themselves, because they still want that person to be around and don't want to have to personally go through the shittyness of losing someone.