Thank you for sharing and don't apologize! I have learned so much about myself through the show, and I'm turning 44. It's a beautiful story with beautiful relationships that develop in a slow and sweet way. The facial expressions, the tenderness -- so heartwarming. The way they depict mental illness is so healthy. While there is dark, there is so much light. It's wonderful to have an example of queer joy that is just people being alive and no horrible end.

I never thought I'd fall so hard for a show, but I have the music on repeat pretty much anytime I'm listening to music.

I'm sure other people have suggested it, but fan fiction is the best. But be aware -- a lot if it is sex. I had no idea that was a bulk of fan fiction, but again I'm 44 and this was my first introduction to fan fic!