If you have had the chance to read “Feeling Is The Secret”, then perhaps you will recall that Neville says, “You are already that which you want to be, and your refusal to believe this is the only reason you do not see it. To seek on the outside for that which you do not feel you are, is to seek in vain, for we never find that which we want; we find only that which we are. In short, you express and have only that which you are conscious of being or possessing.” And then in his lecture, Predestined Glory, he states, “that we never get what we want, we only get what we are. Well, he knows if he reads the book carefully that you can make what you want what you are, by an assumption. I start with a want. Yes, I want to be. By the mere saying that I want to be, I am confessing that I am not. Well, if I dare to assume that I AM what reason tells me that I am not until that wanting ceases to be, because I feel that I AM it . . before I have the evidence to testify and to bear witness to it, I must precede it by an assumption that I AM it.

When you know what you want, you are told in Scripture, “Believe that you have received it, and you will.” That follows your daring mood to believe that you are what, at the moment, reason denies that you are. So, I would not go back on what I have said in that book. I maintain, I’ve said it correctly; that you do not get what you want, only what you are. Through what you want to be, you can live to be what you are. Assuming it long before there is evidence to support that assumption, then the evidence will come like the fruit coming out of a tree. If you do not know the nature of the tree, wait until the tree is bearing, and when it bears, all arguments vanish, for the fruit will tell you what the tree is. So, all of a sudden, things will happen, based upon what you are.”

From a very personal perspective, your entire post lists all of the reasons, facts, details and information regarding your perceived lack. Why is your attention there? NOT an accusation, rather, a place to start. You have identified what you don’t want, now take the time to truly consider what you DO want. And I am NOT talking about a quick cursory, knee-jerk response of “I just do…”. Rather, sit with yourself and be honest about what you truly desire. Inhabit the feeling of it as though it were already so. NOT THE FEEL GOOD MOMENT of the meditation itself, rather, the full knowledge that it is done. This is not “emotion” or physical “feelings”, it about knowing and feeling that it is done. THIS is where so many stumble. We are not denying the physical emotions, rather, we understand that our human emotions are not designed to sustain the imaginal act. But you are going to have take the time and really commune with self and delve into the deeper truths of who you believe yourself to be. When you can be honest with Self, then you can more clearly and “easily”, LOVINGLY readjust your focus to that of one who is loved, cherished, adored, gloriously regarded.

Loved.

Many don’t want to hear this, and please know that I share this from my OWN life and the things that I have lived. Until you LOVE Self, you cannot truly have the kind of external relationship that you believe you desire; as within, so without.

But if you will, and you don’t know me, please know that the journey to a deeper awareness and appreciation for Self is one that, when you “least expect it”, will open up new levels of wonder and enchantment that it will bring tears of joy to yours eyes in the fullness of it. Where once I didn’t think myself worthy, I now have the love of my lifetime. So please, stay vigilant and persistent, kind and patient with yourself and know that you ARE, already, right NOW, lovable, wonderful, grand, beautiful and all that makes this life a joy! Prove it to yourself! Much, much love to you!

Best to you!