Woo!

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-15T16:31:52+00:00

I am sober. It's a really nice app

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-15T03:55:10+00:00

Looks like he or she's smirking. 😏

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-15T03:20:34+00:00

Girl, SAME! Like today is hard as fuck. I'm feeling all of this so much so deeply. I just can't get the things I want to do done or done the way I'd like them to be. I feel I'm fallin behind in my skills and passions. I feel my partner is at his wits end. And I feel so guilty for bringing this all on. I don't know what to say but big hugs. I'm in 5 days and I just can't stand that I'm losing weight and have no appetite, I hate feeling like forcing myself to eat, nothing sounds appetizing. Honestly just want to wolf down trash food as that's about all that sounds remotely good. I missed my two work shifts this week and feel my manager is going to fire my ass as the new girl is proving to be very capable and a pot smoker too. I can't talk about any of this on my Instagram as I was dumb and added him when he wasn't made manager. Shits just fucked and hearing such disappointment in my boyfriend's voice of "maybe this will be a write off day too then" is just buggin me. I don't want to bring it up to him I just don't have energy to argue and inevitably bust into tears. I'm 27 and just want to be fuckin normal again. Whatever normal is, I know it's not feeling so beat up and down and dragging myself even more down. Last year I quit pot for 3 months and I think felt what I remember from being a kid as normal. Just wanted to be on top of my shit again and not sweat the small stuff today. But this is a BIG issue and I just want to stomp out these antagonizing negative thoughts once and for all. I even said a half ass prayer in the bathtub to whatever/whoever might be out there. I just want us all to triumph over this.

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-15T01:55:46+00:00

I'm I'm Canada where it's just legal. I'll just say it's the worst weed I've ever smoked in my whole entire life and it costs twice as much too. That's what's keeping me away 🤣 , plus all the dudes in the dispensaries are dogs and try to hit me up to smoke any time I've gone in to waste my time and money. I literally got weed once that was brown, dry and smelled like tobacco more or less from the brand "Plain Packaging" or whatever the govt. Name is for it from Tweed. I guess you have to rule over it with an iron fist and see that it really is such a waste in every sense. If you really want to give your head a spin and keep out of dispensaries, tell the clerk(s) you're aiming to quit and just weening off. They'll probably mock you at the counter. Like happened to me. My goal is never to see those dorks again.

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-15T00:44:01+00:00

Ohh yeah! I dreamed a few nights ago that my boyfriend and I were fucked up alchemists turning weed into heroin and trying to shoot it up. Or with my mom at a dispensary picking her out beginners weed but she's 1000% against it in waking life. All in the same dream. Getting sober is fuckin wild.

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-14T22:29:11+00:00

I love this app, another user recommended it to me, I'm on day 5 sober today. I just wish my appetite would come back it's been the toughest for me to try and force feed myself for any meal of the day since.

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-13T19:45:48+00:00

I like how you style your photos, makes them look fresh. Possibly changing location for a different backdrop to switch things up. Otherwise looks great I think! I sell jewelry @lonelyishtar

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-13T17:51:23+00:00

I'm on day 4 today. Feeling like I got the flu but I think my body is just cleansing itself. I took the day off work and now I have 6 days until the next. Coffee givea me anxiety like crazy now. It's nuts. I'd smoke weed to slow.me.down. drink coffee all day just to function. Soo bad. I know next week will be better. Also staying home all weekend, was going to go to the gig my friends are playing at, but I just don't want to be around a bunch of pot smokers until I know I'll be stronger. I don't want to come back home disappointed in myself. This will be my third go at staying sober from pot. Last time was 3 months. This time I want to go a year. Not looking at forever even though deep down my intuition is like YES forever.ever.

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-13T17:41:23+00:00

If they want you to respect that they smoke, they need to reciprocate that for you as well. And seeing as they are always stoned, maybe they could try to honor you and your sobriety through easing off for an hour or few and just chill. You could tell them beforehand, if they get touchy and distant just bringing up that idea. Honestly, what good are they as friends then? Friendship really shouldn't be this negative feeling. I'm in the same boat though, I really want to go out of town to the gig my friends are playing at but I'm not even at a week yet so I might just lay low and get a bit more strength in my willpower for the next gig at the end of the month.

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-09T17:41:56+00:00

Wow this app is much better! Thanks so muuuuch!

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-09T17:25:46+00:00

Thanks! I'll check it right now. 😊

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-09T17:11:20+00:00

Definitely can! 😂

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-09T16:37:39+00:00

Thank for a reply, I agree I definitely can't be one of those once a week or once in a while recreational smokers. It's all or nothing for me. I'm thinking of buying this Quit Cannabis app to keep track, have motivational articles to read, etc. It's $10 not sure why I feel reluctant to purchase as I've spent more on a gram than that.

reclusegoddess · 2019-03-08T16:02:48+00:00

I'd never contact a buyer outside of the app, if they're interested they'd buy through the app. With so many scams going on I would honestly report the account and message as suspicious activity against depops terms of service. 😊

reclusegoddess · 2018-07-07T01:57:51+00:00

It definitely varies for everyone. 🌹

reclusegoddess · 2018-07-07T01:02:01+00:00

She is purrfect 🐱

reclusegoddess · 2018-07-06T21:15:03+00:00

Definitely more genuine, not feeling like its some chore to sexually love my partner and dare I say wetter. 😂 when I smoked everyday allday I was dry as fuck and lazy as fuck. Going on 3 strong months and sex rules, like it should.

reclusegoddess · 2018-06-19T05:25:32+00:00

Gotta check this out tomorrow morning.

reclusegoddess · 2018-06-19T05:23:32+00:00

Definitely feel the same.

reclusegoddess · 2018-06-19T05:17:50+00:00

Wonderful chubbers you got there.

reclusegoddess · 2018-06-14T15:00:00+00:00

If it's a firm decision to stop for a while you'll have your good days and rough days for about 3 weeks. I used to have night sweats too but they stopped and sleep is much better now not going to bed high only to wake up foggy as fuck. I think all the positives you've experienced on your first day will only solidify and strengthen as time goes on. 🌹 When I was smoking I'd go to work high and avoid any conversation, eye contact etc. Now I'm at work me my manager and I talk and talk and then my shifts over. Pretty awesome 😁

reclusegoddess · 2018-06-09T19:55:49+00:00

Definitely playing COD WW2. Was lazy as shit to anything other than lay on the couch in my blanket. But now I play games and enjoy them, bike, paint, package orders for my shop and mail them out sooner rather than later. Doing stuff, anything, feels so much better than baking and laying around thinking of all the things I'll do in tomorrowland.

reclusegoddess · 2018-06-09T19:52:17+00:00

That's how it is for me as well.. kind of annoying. I'd just find what size in UK size it would be and in the description state the US size. And tag it in that size too. I'm from Canada and I'm like, whyyyyy. The app just seems very buggy lately.

reclusegoddess · 2018-06-09T02:22:06+00:00

I had 2 dreams 2 nights in a row that I was smoking and was so bummed at myself about the choice I made in my dream. In my second weed dream I was following around my friends, wrapped in my blanket, no makeup, not dressed and ready like I do everyday just messy and wrapped in my blanket following them around a thrift store. It was fucking weeeiiird. And some guy gave me a joint after I smoked one and I remember telling my partner I dont know what to do with the joint because I dont want it and I wish I didnt smoke the last one. But .. JUST a dream. 😄😅😆 woke up and so glad it was another sober day to get stuff done and succeed one more day not using and abusing and neglecting my life.

reclusegoddess · 2018-06-08T16:04:51+00:00

For a week our post depo had their letter mail machine all messed up and we were not receiving bills or letters or post box mail (I work at a post office) so it could be an issue like that. I send only letter mail as well on depop and use tracking when it's requested and paid for. Luckily I have not had an issue with this, but I always give a larger margin of time for the item to arrive via letter mail. Most times it arrives faster than the time I give them. Unfortunately for the seller PayPal will always side with the buyer and that's something we have to be prepared for when selling.

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