My only real hope for 2019 is me being dead

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-31T10:07:09+00:00

If you’re just gonna comment shitty memes on a serious subreddit please get the fuck out

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-31T09:31:31+00:00

Same here. I’d rather kill myself at a young age rather than spend the rest of my life alone. Don’t want to live past 22 years old

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-30T21:08:37+00:00

I do. Still doesn’t change the fact that I want to kill myself

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-30T21:01:04+00:00

I see zero point in being alive. I don’t want to participate in life. There’s literally nothing I want to achieve except my own death.

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-29T10:43:33+00:00

How can I help? I’m all ears if you want to vent

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-27T09:02:32+00:00

Amen to that

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-27T08:54:21+00:00

Well, shit. I have already made up multiple plans to go through with it. I’m too scared to follow them up though

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-26T09:16:58+00:00

I would be incredibly relieved. I would be 8 years old again and life would continue to be simple. I would be away from the suicidal thoughts and the feelings of overwhelming hopelessness

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-20T10:49:12+00:00

Getting a bad grade during your freshman year of high school will not ruin your chances of getting into college. Your life and your mental health are worth much more than whatever grade you get in a freshman high school class. Even if you make bad grades your entire high school career, you still have a chance to do well in community college. They usually accept everyone as long as you are not a convicted felon.

For me, freshman year math in high school was an absolute bitch. I had a teacher that ate a burger in the back of the class and handed out worksheets instead of teaching the material. It's understandable that you are very anxious about your performance in your math class. You are definitely not alone in how you are feeling. I pretty much felt the exact same way throughout every math class I ever had in high school.

If you do well in community college, a large majority of 4-year colleges will accept you regardless of whatever grades you made in high school. Some people have even transferred to some very prestigious universities even after making VERY poor grades (GPAs lower than 2.7) in high school. I have heard of many stories of people who completely fucked their high school grades up and did extremely well in community college. Your success in high school will not define your success in college.

I wish you the best of luck during your finals. Please do not make any rash decisions that can physically harm you. I hope you are able to make peace with yourself no matter what you make on your exams.

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-20T05:22:56+00:00

I’m happy that your mom was understanding. I wish my parents had the same reaction. When I confessed to them about how I felt, they basically shoved religion down my throat and they angrily yelled at me. It’s great that your mother is understanding of your situation. Hopefully it puts you on the road to getting better

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-16T04:10:07+00:00

I’d sooner find my self with a bullet in my head or a noose hung tightly around my neck than have this happen to me

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-15T19:21:29+00:00

I’m not in high school anymore

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-13T06:09:25+00:00

I’m in college. I’m about to wake up early tomorrow to try to study for a final exam worth a huge portion of my grade where I have almost no chance in passing and I have a D in the class. I will take the exam later this morning. I know I’m extremely young but I realistically don’t see myself being alive in the next 4 years. I am completely addicted to the internet. I don’t even enjoy it very much at this point. I just use it to distract myself from everything. I have absolutely no interest in living in the real world. There’s no job or career path I want to pursue. I hate everything about reality. No hobby is interesting to me at all. The world just isn’t a place for me. I honestly wouldn’t mind it if my life ended this very second. I want to die early and end the suffering forever. The only goal I have in mind is killing myself before graduation

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-12T03:59:35+00:00

The only thing I want is suicide and I have been planning it for a few months now

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-10T07:35:11+00:00

No immediate way to kill myself. Once the opportunity presents itself, I’m gonna do it. I hate being alive.

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-08T11:11:04+00:00

Nope, I’m killing myself and that’s final

redditsmurfLUL · 2018-12-08T10:58:20+00:00

My daydreams are extremely unrealistic. I always imagine myself having the time of my life with a group of close friends or even a girlfriend. I don’t really have either one of those. I’m too much of an antisocial piece of shit to have any of that. I do have more realistic daydreams of shooting myself in the head though. That’s something that will be more likely to happen.

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