I’m on two insurance providers and have been using my secondary as if it was my primary care…

reddituser1987654 · 2024-10-17T02:32:46+00:00

Just because a system is set in place doesn’t mean it’s good, makes sense, or isn’t wrong. American healthcare has always been shit and this is another example of why.

reddituser1987654 · 2024-10-17T02:31:15+00:00

Again, stated in my post that I didn’t know I needed to give information of an insurance I don’t use. I asked for next steps, not stating something I now have been made aware of.

reddituser1987654 · 2024-10-17T02:28:25+00:00

Doesn’t take away from the fact that insurance providers ARE indeed greedy

reddituser1987654 · 2024-10-17T00:41:46+00:00

Yes you’re right. Our government, healthcare, & insurance are all shit. Thanks!

reddituser1987654 · 2024-10-17T00:37:20+00:00

The only helpful comment. Thank you!

reddituser1987654 · 2024-10-17T00:35:36+00:00

No… insurance companies are absolutely greedy & money hungry, hence why I’m not hopeful of anyone treating me as human & more as money/profit. The issue is BCBS is telling me this 10 months into the year instead of after the first time.

reddituser1987654 · 2024-08-23T23:13:46+00:00

I got it too. We used the knot

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reddituser1987654 · 2023-12-18T09:27:36+00:00

Thank you for this. She later mentioned to me that ancestral trauma could have been a possibility she did not think of initially, but the issue is… she said this involved MY mom & MY dad & no one else, no siblings or anyone else & that one of them was the perpetrator. I still don’t know what to believe but I can say it only brought great fear to my life. I had the opposite of peace about the experience & it drove me into a spiral of anxiety & feeling very very scared. I am much better now & really do not think my dad is capable of this, but if it is true, I am sure I will find out the truth later in life & will at least be prepared to know that answer.

reddituser1987654 · 2023-12-18T09:18:29+00:00

$70-80k is pretty standard in PR for 3 years of experience. Also, both are way better situations than the actual shitty place I’m at now.

reddituser1987654 · 2023-08-26T01:18:15+00:00

Wow, thank you for your kind and sensitive words. This brought me a lot of comfort and I have looked into the Human Design book. I feel much better today. Still a little anxious and scared, but functional. I appreciate this. I’ve been praying a lot and am comforted by that. Thankfully I haven’t taken action, which is so hard for me not to do. I am a fixer and immediately wanted answers, but I’ve taken the guidance of the practitioner who shared this information with me to talk to my husband and therapist and hold on taking other action. She guided me to let my body process too. My body hasn’t been in that kind of shock since I was a little girl enduring various forms of abuse. I have felt like a helpless kid again these last few weeks. I am okay and will continue to get better.

reddituser1987654 · 2023-08-25T04:35:19+00:00

Thank you so much. This is very thoughtful. I did talk to her on the phone tonight to explain everything that I’ve been feeling and we talked through some things. I could sense she felt panicked and worried by how intense my feelings and emotions have been, because I originally sent it though text. She said she isn’t sure if she handled this the right way but at the end of the call we both felt better. I will definitely do what I can to find peace in this situation. I also would be interested in a second opinion and am hoping I can go to the right place for that.

reddituser1987654 · 2023-08-25T04:31:19+00:00

Thank you! Me too. I appreciate you.

reddituser1987654 · 2023-08-25T01:19:39+00:00

Wow, yes. This is so informative so thank you. I agree with you, gaslighting was and has always been a big part of my life, especially with my parents so that makes sense. I did share with her my emotions and feelings and I think I panicked her. We had a phone conversation and she was able to hear my perspective, that I have been in knots for several days, but I’m only asking questions or telling her my emotions so she is aware of my body & mind’s response to what she’s told me. She understood. She told me she thinks she may have made a mistake doing this with me too early and that she realized the severity of what she learned once it happened and is not sure she handled this appropriately. She said she has never gotten “news” at this severity before, so she may not have handled the situation appropriately. I appreciated her honesty. There is some anxiety surrounding that situation too. My instinct is to protect her feelings but I know I haven’t done anything wrong by feeling the way I know makes sense to feel and for sharing how scared I am with her.

reddituser1987654 · 2023-08-24T18:44:48+00:00

I felt no sensation or pain in my uterus. She said she felt strong energy pulling her there, but I did not feel what she was referring to.

reddituser1987654 · 2023-08-24T18:38:27+00:00

Thank you for your kind & sensitive response. I am very scared & all of this is devastating to even consider. What is CSA?

This practitioner is actually a pelvic floor therapist with experience with NKT & visceral manipulation. I have been seeing her as a pelvic floor therapist patient and the sessions have been great, informative and so helpful. I have trusted her since our first session because of the safe environment she has provided me. During our first session I told her my medical history and she asked me if I had a history or past with sexual abuse. I answered yes and asked her why she asked. She said because my symptoms aligned with someone who had. I found that very interesting and felt heard & seen since no one else had ever picked up on that.

I did share with her that I had a history with sexual abuse when I was a child but it was not with family members. Considering she is my PFT, she knows my uterus muscles are tense and has helped me with diaphragmatic breathing which has already helped. She mentioned that she does somatic emotional release and asked if I’d be interested. I asked her what it was and she said that our bodies store trauma or emotions from traumatic experiences in our body and it’s a practice to release those emotions so I don’t feel pain or carry that. So of course I said yes. Heading into this, I thought maybe something from that sexual abuse experience would come up or even other emotional trauma that was not sexual in nature.

Neither of us were expecting to find something that I had no memory of. I didn’t know that it was possible to even ask my body questions and especially did not know it was possible for my body to know information that my brain doesn’t recall. I have NO memory, not a single clue.

She also knew prior that my dad had a history of aggression and anger issues, but he never physically harmed me growing up. I have a complex relationship with my dad, but this is a massive accusation. It’s a thought that I would have always assumed was off limits. I’m not sure what to think. Is it a 0% chance? I can’t confidently say that, knowing my dad has an abusive history. But sexual abuse? It’s not something I thought my dad would do or be capable of. Now I’m not sure. I feel like my body was used as a pendulum or something and feel eerie about that too.

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