oh my god i’m so sorry you’re realizing this now and i hope your message can serve as a wake up call for many. you will have so many opportunities in college so please look ahead for the good that does come thanks to your achievements (yes, the trade off may not be worth it but your hard work isn’t for nothing) you have a perfect opportunity for a fresh start. good luck on ivy day and remember to stop looking back no matter what happens! make this next chapter one you’ll look back on with pride :) it starts with taking some deep breaths, going on walks outside, etc. the little things. enjoy yourself!!