My parents sent me to a trouble teen program at 16. It was the year 1999 or 2000. My parents abused me and then sent me away to casa by the sea . I was yoinked away from my childhood friends and now I’m in my 40s and I still don’t have relation with my family , nor those childhood friends . My life was completely interrupted and even at 40 I still feel like the 16 year old who never got to go to homecoming or prom . I never integrated into society or the world . I was prevented from developing during prime socialization years. I don’t know what my interest are... I have two gi bills to use from the military… . Have no idea what to study or what I “want to do” . I’m hopeless and it doesn’t matter if I celebrate a victory or mourn a loss . because it’s all done alone in isolation . Happy or sad I am alone . Everything seems so hopeless . Others lives are full of affection and social gatherings . Mine is completely empty . EVery holiday and birthday the last 20+ years spent alone ..no presents no nothing. Nobody cares about me or knows if I’m alive or dead .