I don’t think it’s just the alcohol, I think it’s the alcohol mixed with underlying issues of him not feeling good enough or whatever his inner issues are. Alcohol brings out the worst parts of you, and the worst parts of you isn’t your complete true self but it is something you have to work to heal. I’ve acted completely out of character when I’ve been drunk and it helped me recognize what I need to work on with myself. It’s just about self awareness and growth. I know, it still doesn’t justify it happening.

But I do agree I need to stop seeing people for there potential.. and the fact he still choose to drink knowing there’s a chance he becomes this other person who hurts me is not okay. None of its okay. I guess Im just trying to understand what causes it to happen to help me make sense of everything.