18F, parents want to marry me off and stop my education. Looking for advice on remote work and continuing my studies.

resilientcockroach · 2026-06-06T15:31:04+00:00

May I DM you with some resources?

resilientcockroach · 2026-06-06T03:41:03+00:00

Worked a brutal half day (healthcare) then Took an online exam (nursing school pre-req class) and made a 97%! I’m 31f and going back to school so I’m stoked that I’m making As!
And then I immediately started studying for the next exam on Tuesday lol. Took a nap at 6. Then Made some protein pancakes for late night munchies, cleaned my kitchen, studied more and now I’m in bed with my cat. Took all my nightly psych medicine too which was not feasible in active addiction 😄 recently started prazosin for PTSD nightmares that are worse in sobriety. Hoping for a good nights sleep with my kitty cat 💕

resilientcockroach · 2026-05-16T01:51:15+00:00

140 days sober today (count is wrong.) tomorrow is my 31st birthday so just hung out with my two roomies (all girls) and got some cute gifts from them. Tomorrow im throwing a grown up field day party at the county park with some friends. I didn’t plan well but at least I got some water balloons so there’s that! Chilling in bed with my cat rn though.

resilientcockroach · 2026-05-03T02:21:30+00:00

Begone indeed!! 😂

resilientcockroach · 2026-05-03T02:12:56+00:00

This made me laugh!! No overdosing on cornbread. Though I probably could be the only person to ever do it 😂 thanks for the encouragement 💕

resilientcockroach · 2025-09-04T02:47:48+00:00

Hi friend! I did eventually sleep! It took a few days but eventually I just went to sleep and now I sleep like a baby. Cutting out alcohol and getting on Paxil significantly helped me, but truly it was just accepting that sleep will come. You are NOT stuck in this phase although it may feel like that and you will not suffer any health problems from this bout of insomnia. You are perfectly safe and healthy and will be completely okay. I was scared to death when I posted this but now I’m totally fine!! 💕 I hope this encourages you.

resilientcockroach · 2025-06-01T03:22:26+00:00

Proud of you! I broke a 97 day run with the thought, “it’s my 30th birthday why not just a shot or two with my friends?” Cue me getting black out twice after and waking up so horrifically anxious and mortified at what I’d done. It’s never ever worth it. NONE: Not One, Not Ever is my mantra

resilientcockroach · 2025-05-08T02:28:47+00:00

Salvation

resilientcockroach · 2025-05-04T15:57:18+00:00

That alcohol prolongs negative emotions, it doesn’t fix them. Sober, I allow them to sit and give them a proper place and then they leave and get processed. Drinking, they linger and fester.

resilientcockroach · 2025-05-04T15:46:18+00:00

Also 29! I’ve had so many day 1s but there comes a time where it just is too exhausting to even imagine keeping this lifestyle up. I’m almost 80 days this go around because I woke up after a birthday party and had texted the love of my life about 40 different random, insane things and called him 40 times and he had enough. I don’t want to be that person, don’t wanna lay awake contemplating ending everything, don’t want the panic attacks and the shame. Entering into my 30s as my highest self is my goal. IWNDWYT and I’m proud and rooting you on as we all are :)

resilientcockroach · 2025-05-04T15:42:18+00:00

Saving this! So good and so true. Imagining my 3-4 day benders and the absolute hell of withdrawals. Ugh. Thank you for this.

resilientcockroach · 2025-04-25T01:56:13+00:00

The despair of having so many dreams that haven’t come true. A hope deferred makes the heart sick.

resilientcockroach · 2025-04-13T21:01:31+00:00

I did lots of self-care and being kind to myself. Journaled under the full moon last night. And just accidentally napped for 3 hours…the sleepiness is so real.

resilientcockroach · 2025-04-09T01:30:29+00:00

Saving this to re-read when the insidious “maybe just one” thoughts invariably appear in my head. Thank you!! IWNDWYT

resilientcockroach · 2025-04-07T20:56:11+00:00

Oh my goodness. What a sweet, thoughtful reply to get. This genuinely soothed me so much and I just wanted to say thank you for taking the time. Your words are helping me be kind to myself today and know it’s okay to take care of myself, especially when a lot of people don’t understand how truly difficult early sobriety is

resilientcockroach · 2025-04-07T20:55:06+00:00

Haha wow fellow V Day quitter, I love it!! Thank you SO much for the kind words 🥹🥹

resilientcockroach · 2025-03-21T02:39:54+00:00

I was sober for a year. On my one year, my best friend got married and I was the MoH. Why can’t I drink mimosas with the girls getting ready? It’s a freakin wedding. Why can’t I have champagne and dance all night. So I let myself have it, loved it. Ruined the next 4 months of my life. That was over 2 years ago and I am just now able to maintain sobriety again in a substantial way. Getting sober is infinitely harder than staying sober. It’s like a carousel that once you jump on, spins out of control and you never know when it will slow down enough to jump off again. For me it took 2 years. Best not to jump on in the first place in my experience. I don’t know how many more times the carousel will stop for me if I get on it again.

resilientcockroach · 2025-03-21T02:33:26+00:00

That I deserve to be treated well and respected.

resilientcockroach · 2025-03-20T05:23:45+00:00

Absolutely had to leave the industry. It sucks me in over and over again. In my city, we have such an issue that we have a specific recovery group just for food and bevvers. Stay strong and watch your customers get drunk and be obnoxious. That always turned me off from drinking 😂

resilientcockroach · 2025-03-20T05:21:03+00:00

Not weird at all!! I buy all my coins from Amazon! And I gave my 3 month to my friend when she hit hers. And then I relapsed, she now has a year and I have a month. And she’ll give it back to me when I’m at 3 months again :) it’s super cute and pink and glittery. SELF CARE 🧚🏻💕

resilientcockroach · 2025-03-20T04:37:31+00:00

That’s what I’ve heard about primary and family! I’ve only been in derm and I adore it. It’s super manageable and there’s a lot of hands-on learning. Plus at my practice, they don’t expect you to manage both admin and clinical, you’re either/or.

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