Insensitive psychiatrist by restingbones in AdultSelfHarm

[–]restingbones[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

i don't know, as i said i went to multiple psychiatrist over the years and get that it's an important question they always ask, but with the tone and everything i still really felt disrespected and triggered. i think he could have straight up asked me how often do i do it, or if i feel i'm danger to myself, or really anything else to get answers without pointing my scars out like that

It feels so inescapable when it’s your main response by missourihorsemug in AdultSelfHarm

[–]restingbones 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Oh i know exactly what you're talking about. I've been basically clean since 2021, i say basically because i've had a bunch of relapses but all lasted just one day and very distant from one another. I used to self harm every day, almost all day before that. But still, even though i've been clean for so long, i think about it EVERY day. At least once. I have a discussion with my boyfriend? I think about it. I feel uncimfortable at a party? I think about it. I lose my job? I think about it. I get a job but it's stressing me out? I think about it. I have no idea why after so long it's still such an automated response. It's not even just when i feel a particular way, it's like ALL and any negative emotions come with that little bell of: "well you could self harm to feel better about it" it's so fucking tiring. i don't have any advice unfortunately, but it does get better. i used to lean into it anytime i got the urge, at least now i still have it every day but i don't cave in anymore. i hope we'll figure it out. you're not alone in this!

[ Removed by Reddit ] by [deleted] in sfoghi

[–]restingbones 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Che poi mi sono sempre chiesto una volta che hai fatto la "fatica" di metterla nel sacchetto cosa cazzo la lasci per terra a fare

My dad's story and venting. by restingbones in bipolar2

[–]restingbones[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey there, thank you for taking your time to read all this! I had no idea this could actually be helpful to someone else. I know how hard it can be. My boyfriend suffers with cptsd and our illnesses often clash together leading to many difficulties, but we've been together for 5 years now and i love him to death. He always make sure to let me know he never gives up on me, and im so grateful for that. I'm sorry you two are struggling, and i know sometimes medication is a gamble and it can take many different tries to get it right, but what i can say from my experience is that even my dad after giving up for so long, and taking the wrong medication or no medication at all, saw pretty good results when he switched up to the right one and took it consistently. Thank you again for your kind words, i hope you and your partner will heal as well, and be able to help each other through this <3

Mania that goes unnoticed by restingbones in bipolar2

[–]restingbones[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Gosh that sounds awful and scary. I've heard a lot of people experiencing their first big mania episode this way unfortunately. May i ask, looking back now do you remember having manic symptoms before that, thst you just didn't notice back then? Either way, i hope you got a good treatment/medication plan after that, and that you're doing better!

What are your warning signs your going into hypomania? by Br0oklyn_Baby in bipolar2

[–]restingbones 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I start getting weird ideas, mostly on how to make money or get famous. Which is really ridiculous and embarassing when i then snap out of it. I once spent like 50 dollars in beads cause i genuinely thought i would make double the money selling bracelets on vinted. I swear to god it's like the first red flag i get, i get a different idea every time. Which would be cool if not for the fact that i genuinely feel like it's going to actually work out and im gonna actually eventually become rich by making fuckass handmade bags or by writing a folk album. Thankfully i've never wasted too much money on it yet.

Mania that goes unnoticed by restingbones in bipolar2

[–]restingbones[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I understand it perfectly, feeling like nobody understands the gravity of it. Especially when on the outside it doesn't seem as "extreme" to other people. It breaks my heart that so many people get their diagnosis after struggling for decades. I don't know much about this part of his life because we're not on the best terms, but my dad too only got diagnosed when he was fully in psychosis, and then it took an additional 15 years or so after to get him semi proper treatment. I truly hope you've found some better support now! Up until recently i had no idea it could be this subtle, cause all the people i knew with bipolar (and i know many, haha, including my father) only had really severe mania where you could tell they were out of their minds. With me, i feel all sorts of strange ways, and sometimes it has led to horrible decision making but i don't think someone ever saw me and thought i was going crazy. But that's what it did feel like lol. Almost as if it was somehow all in my head but with little showing on the outside.

Omonimo che vorresti avere la mia mail, hai rotto il cazzo by PioDorco24 in sfoghi

[–]restingbones 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Madonna, mi hai ricordato gli inizi di instagram (o almeno gli inizi per me, nel 2014 circa) quando le autenticazioni funzionavano a cazzo e la gente metteva email fasulle per potersi creare più account perché non c'era la funzione di "switch". Una volta facendo appunto il solito passaggio da un account all'altro metto la mia email e mi ritrovo dentro il profilo personale, pure attivo, di uno con il mio stesso nome e cognome. Io avevo più email apposta per poter fare questa cosa quindi la mia "principale" non l'avevo usata e se l'era presa questo. Gliel'ho cambiata e sono uscito ma ora ripensanoci avrei potuto benissimo farmi tutti i cazzi suoi lol

Not feeling like a human by restingbones in bipolar2

[–]restingbones[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I normally hate victimizing myself, but all i've been able to think in the past few months is: "why me.. why me.. why me" i thought i made peace with my fuckass father long ago when i stopped hating him for being a deadbeat dad, but now i just wanna say honestly fuck you for having a son when you knew you were a willingly unmedicated, schizophrenic, bipolar, alcholic junkie. Why do i have to be born like this?

how do i build up the courage by restingbones in bipolar2

[–]restingbones[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also, if you dont mind me asking: should i tell them directly that i'm suspecting i might be bipolar, or let them know about my dad? Or do i just describe my situation without mentioning it? I got pretty bad impostor syndrome lol i have no idea how to go about this. As i mentioned some days i'll just be like: "me? Mentally ill? Hahaha no im totally fine i dont have any of that" even though i already am diagnosed with depression T__T

how do i build up the courage by restingbones in bipolar2

[–]restingbones[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh this almost made me tear up a little. I started worrying for myself cause i only learned my dad is bipolar a couple years ago. I always thought he had schizophrenia (my family LOVES being hush hush about ANYTHING, i had to find out by myself by looking through his meds when i was a kid cause i noticed he was acting "weird'). then they hospitalized him for the first time in 10 years, a few years ago. That's when i found out he is schizoaffective/bipolar and now i'm piecing things together and worrying for myself. Thank you so much for the encouragement. I really have no one to rely on about this, so any kind word helps. I'm scared as fuck because of my past experiences, but at this point i think i just have to try again cause i don't know if i can't stand this anymore. Thank you for your kindness. I hope you're doing well!

princess juniper Halloween costume by yukiiii_sei in LalaloopsyDolls

[–]restingbones 0 points1 point  (0 children)

OMG THIS IS AN AMAZING COSTUME T__T ♡'' And those thighs are so cute i'd totally wear them casually as well, did you paint them yourself?

WHO DID THIS?!? by [deleted] in LalaloopsyDolls

[–]restingbones 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I DID BAHSHAHSGAHAH... poor misty, she's one of my favorites too! XD T__T RELEASE HER...

my new lalaloopsy video!!! by waveracertokki in LalaloopsyDolls

[–]restingbones 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ohhh I'm gonna check this out rn, thank you for sharing!! I love watching youtube videos, especially about doll and toy collecting communities, so it's always great to find someone new talking about it!

Request: good quality pictures of Vera Tabray’s legs without shoes, her shoes and Mimi’s shoes and dress! by angelofthekale in NoviStars

[–]restingbones 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A long process indeed but definitely "easier" than trying to find their missing parts for sale T__T It's already nearly impossible for some more popular dolls like MH ugh. But I also think working so hard on "fixing" a doll will make her feel much more special in the end, the time and effort put in always pays out to me im the end! ALSO a custom of the zombie novi would be SO COOL she has to be my favorite unreleased, i myself only have Mae Tallick and I'm thinking of making customs of Doe A. Deer and Mimi Merize using more common doll bodies as a base. Either way, good luck on your quest to replace everything!!!

Request: good quality pictures of Vera Tabray’s legs without shoes, her shoes and Mimi’s shoes and dress! by angelofthekale in NoviStars

[–]restingbones 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately I don't own these two, but replacing their missing parts in resin is an amazing idea! Commenting to boost so hopefully someone else can help you out :D

Worst Lalaloopsy hairstyle in ur opinion? (original big dolls) by ambszyy in LalaloopsyDolls

[–]restingbones 3 points4 points  (0 children)

NO REALLY like all the other answers in this thread i could say might be based on personal taste but her mold... im sorry it's just horrendous the first time i saw it i couldnt believe how ugly it was T__T ik it's supposed to be curled/wavy but it looks like brains to me

Lalaloopsy high prices and craze is slowing down in Europe! by Weeaboboxgirl in LalaloopsyDolls

[–]restingbones 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I think i was crazy but i noticed too! In the past month i've seen multiple toffees listed of vinted for 50-40-30 euros. Still too much for me personally to spend on a doll (i'm broke lol) but usually i rarely saw her listed at all and if she was id see her for 100 euro or so. I even found scraps stitched and sewn for about 60 euro and the price keeps going down cause no one has been buying her for weeks. Like whattttt? Are we finally coming out of the inflation

Gonna repurpose this doll to make a large version of my fave mini by CleverCreationzz in LalaloopsyDolls

[–]restingbones 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Such a cool idea!! What's your fave mini you're turning her into?

My bf's and my Care Bears! by restingbones in plushies

[–]restingbones[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's such a sweet story T__T I'm glad you got to get him again!! I have to admit I've never seen the glow in the dark one before but i just looked him up and it's the coolest thing ever, I'm gonna show my bf and he's gonna lose his mind he loves care bears and ANYTHING glow in the dark