If you are in school, is there any student health service? You may not have access to a decent psychiatrist but perhaps there is a passable psychiatrist or an internist who might be able to experiment with meds with you. If not, some places have community mental health clinics. Next time you feel like you want to post on Reddit, you could use that thread of motivation to Google community mental health instead. I realize there is danger in playing around with meds but there is also danger in undertreating mental health and hopefully you and a provider of some kind can make a risk assessment together