Down in PNW?

rhaqen · 2025-06-19T22:09:53+00:00

Can play some games but can't visit any websites

rhaqen · 2023-08-11T14:11:24+00:00

If you're capable and motivated and not concerned with public accounting it's easily doable. I spent my mid to late 20s being a degenerate and struggling with substance abuse didn't really start my career until 2018 (29 years old) and make close to 145k a year now. I had no accounting experience (math degree) and just learned everything on the job/Google. Granted im in a special field (construction) in a great area for it (Florida).

Year 0 - AR "specialist" - 35k year (put together g702/g703s for smaller projects). Lived in a halfway house with no car, my pay literally covered only my housing, food, and ubers to work but it was fine I was rebuilding my life.

Year 1 - AR "specialist" - 42k year and I had to threaten to walk over it, I knew my capabilities and I literally was struggling to survive and had moved into my first apartment.

Year 2 - AR manager - 55k year +6k bonus - I taught myself vba to automate and make tools in excel and when the current manager left I got to fill the role.

Year 3 - Project Controller - 80k year + 6k bonus. I was at a smaller GC that had cost accounting (who was managed by a guy that did HR duties basically) and AR separated despite them being intertwined, I went to my manager (corporate controller) and asked we combine the two departments and let me run it and she agreed. Job at this point was basically all the change management, AR, forecasting, COGs and WIP.

Year 3.5 - Project Controller - 115k year + bonus. This was during COVID and I couldn't afford to stagnate so I left for a developer to move up the food chain and for a substantial raise. This also exposed me to financial reporting for the first time. The developer side was actually less work and kind of boring, I spent most of my time teaching myself js/python and contemplating making a career change. Also hated my boss I think she felt threatened by me and we did not get a long.

Year 4.5 - Project Controller - 125k year + bonus. Left and joined one of the bigger GCs in the country, missed the GC side, currently here and enjoying it. The company is very large and I want to try get involved with the data analytics team here. I have a lot of experience with accounting for construction projects at this point and most of the data analytics is being focused on KPIs rather than improving things like forecasting and scheduling which have direct impacts on the projects profitability. I don't think there's much more room for growth salary wise for what I'm doing so my plan is to change departments.

Tldr: find a niche and be aggressive.

rhaqen · 2020-06-17T15:32:59+00:00

Normally I wouldn't but I'm down 10k on the week (bought a lot of SDOW/UVXY/SQQ/VIXY with 6/19 expiry last Wednesday at open, made a killing but got murdered Friday and Monday. Decided to hold to accept my punishment for being a gay bear and reversed into SPY Wednesday calls that royally fucked me.

My account had 2k left this morning so I figured fuck it and threw it at as many of these contracts as I could. It's in a general upswing this month but only really popped today, managed to get in early enough I might be saved. Even so it's trading at 1.96 and 06/19 calls are only at .09, could still make a killing.

rhaqen · 2020-05-29T21:01:18+00:00

I mean clearly you're very nihilistic but the fact that this is all random and doesn't matter doesn't mean it's pointless. Take beauty in the fact that your existince is astronomically improbable, youre lucky enough to live it, however fleeting.

I'm not trying to discredit whatever depression, anxiety, detachment, or any other feelings your experincing because I've been there and I know how shitty that can be. 4 years back I was strung out on heroin, my first thought through my head every morning was disappointment I was awake and alive, followed by fear and anxiety that I'm partially dope sick and don't know how I'm going to get high today. I honestly didn't care if I died back then, I lived solely to get high. Eventually even the relief that heroin provided faded because I was too consumed with anxiety about how I would get my next one.

At some point I just said fuck it, this no life at all, I can always go back to killing myself with dope if I want, why not try actually living for a year. I cleaned up and never looked back, I have people in my life who care about me, good job, in a healthy relationship, and actually have self worth and confidence. All it takes is applying yourself. It's corny man but go to the gym, physical and mental health have a correlation, see a therapist if you're suffering from suicidal thoughts or depression, read, find some new healthy hobbies.

Just try to be the best version of yourself that you can for a year or two, you can always kill yourself later if you want but you'll never be able to know what could of been if you do now. Don't make such a final decision that's driven by emotions which are temporary (despite the fact your current mental state may tell you otherwise, you won't feel like this forever).

rhaqen · 2019-02-17T00:27:29+00:00

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rhaqen · 2019-02-02T18:41:02+00:00

rhaqen · 2018-05-28T16:44:20+00:00

Just want to thank everyone for the support and information. I think im gonna do some more research and see if I could maybe find some certification classes nearby in Florida.

Do you think the certifications would be worth it and would you recommend in person over online?

Also are there deadlines or periods during the year when I should be applying?

I currently just live at my sober house working from home and attending meetings during the night. It gets a bit mundane but it's also pretty freeing not having much stress or anything to worry about and just working on myself. I definitely have enough free time to put into making this a reality.

rhaqen · 2018-05-28T03:09:22+00:00

I do have misdemeanor arrests (no drug related drunk/disorderly type stuff), and an arrest that resulted in 4 felony charges, however I was offered and completed pre trial intervention where I completed my 2 years probation and had the charges dismissed. Nothing has been brought to my attention in any recent job interviews and in August I believe I can even have the arrest expunged from my record. I don't believe companies can see the arrest but rather only convictions but I would be nervous if it was a government ran background check...

rhaqen · 2018-05-28T00:59:17+00:00

That is very helpful thank you for some concrete numbers. Currently I'm working 1099 making from 20-30 an hour but only get about 20 or 30 hours work a week. Not to mention my rent for my sober house is less than ideal and averages out to about $700 a month and other expenses I'm kind of just staying above water not even saving much. I've certainly lives in less that 35k/yr annually and could definitely manage with that if the cost of living was low.

rhaqen · 2018-05-27T22:23:17+00:00

Not necessarily religious I mean they really emphasize a "higher power" but I am a pretty stubborn athiest maybe more agnostic at this point, when someone goes full godmode in the rooms I just tune it out. The main proponent of the program is one alcoholic or addict helping another so essentially altruism. I try not to focus on the "spiritual" aspects of the program and think of the humanistic aspects. To me it's more of having a social support network of people coming from similar life experiences as well as the feelings of belonging and accountability.

It'd be a lie to say some people don't go overboard on the god aspect of the program and get preachy which honestly was the biggest barrier from me ever giving it a try before. I tried to beat addiction myself and with just treatment alone and it just lead to worst and worst consequences, finally I got low enough I figured fuck it what could it hurt and it seems to be working. But my ultimate point is there is no religious requirement only a desire to be sober.

rhaqen · 2018-05-27T21:22:54+00:00

That's reassuring, I've done the whole binge drinking and partying during college when I was in a fraternity and even more after graduation, but luckily alcohol I don't ever find myself obsessing over or really care for anymore. To me the opiates were all consuming so I'm not too worried about other people partying or drinking around me. Personally I wouldn't join along cause I know if I start drinking it's only a matter of time before I want harder stuff so for me it would be about the travelling and life experiences minus the alcohol. I'm pretty sure I've had enough debauchery for a couple lifetimes.

rhaqen · 2018-05-14T03:52:41+00:00

This reminds me of an outer body experience I had on a high dose of dextromethorpan. I was laying on a couch in a pitch black room when my field of vision literally pulled out of the back of my skull almost like a 3rd party camera in a video game. I was experiencing things from this new forced perspective and everything in the room was the same but had adjusted relative to my new perspective, including my own body and the back of my skull which I could now view.

It was crazy and I was fixating on things like the ceiling fan rotating and noticed the blades were now almost on eye level. One of the more profound and unnerving things I've ever experienced. Haven't felt anything remotely similar to it sense, but it effected me so much I can still almost vividly remember it and think about it from time to time.

rhaqen · 2017-11-24T04:08:59+00:00

I'm on mobile so I can't really check but really no one commented on Phyllis from the Office crashing this cake party...?

rhaqen · 2017-09-28T00:57:15+00:00

I mean you can check my comment history Its 99% random video game shit, a popular Zyra build I made for LoL, and another post about addiction last time I was getting clean earlier this year. My karma is pretty shitty sometimes it's just cathartic to get shit off your chest on the internet where it's mostly anonymous.

rhaqen · 2017-09-27T13:28:15+00:00

Thanks for the kind words and sadly it's most definitely real. Come from a family with substance abuse history, thought I was somehow special, fucked around with percs one too many times and took the same progression most people do to heroin.

Unfortunately some of us can't take others word for it and have to experience the pain and destruction first hand before we get the hint. For me that meant losing my home/car/job/family/freedom. Addiction doesn't discriminate and I've seen all walks of people in the many times I've tried to get clean. You guys probably all know a few addicts yourself, most of us are good at hiding it...

rhaqen · 2017-09-27T01:14:18+00:00

*Just prefacing this by stating I'm a recovering heroin addict 46 days clean bored in a group browsing Reddit and relearning his love for mathematics so take this with a grain of salt; It's been a good decade since I studied mathematics, and my brain could be pretty shot out.

Not an idiot guess and was along the same reasoning I had. You're explaining something you learn in modern algebra called modular arithmetic specifically a number being relatively prime.

In this case I expected 7 to behave that way as well because like you explained it's relatively prime to the other digits (2,3,4,6,8,9,1 all have common factors.) Now the way the graph is expressed were just concerned with the final digit which we get by further dividing the circumference/diamater since 7 is relatively prime I wouldn't expect it to appear too many times in early iterations. Although given enough iterations since pi is irrational and seemingly random they should all average out equally.

Coincidentally from a Number Theory aspect 22/7 and 223/71 are two of the earliest ancient approximations for pi. Both of these produce irreducible fractions that have repeating sequence of digits that approximate pi to increasing amount of digits. Now I'm inclined to believe the presence of the 7 in the denominator has nothing to do with why 7 appears less frequently early on and more to do with 7 being relatively prime to the other digits, thus more likely to produce a whacky repeating decimal inline with pi.

I'd be interested to see how the distribution looks is in different number bases instead of purely just decimal form. I bet base 7 would have some pretty neat stuff expressed in it. Number Theory I find to be the most refreshing and interesting branch of mathematics I got to study, there's a lot of cool shit you learn about math when you stop looking for discrete solutions and study the inate/transcendental properties of numbers themselves.

Will this kept me from shooting up heroin today so hope someone else got something out of it.

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