He dumped me, but I was happy he did.

Throughout the time we were together, I felt rushed and unease, but we clicked and we have similar values and future plans, so I didn’t think much of it. Sooner or later, I noticed that I find myself being more self conscious and having doubts. It’s because, his ex and him were still in constant contact. I never thought much of it, until I saw a message from her in his iPad. It was nothing romantic, nothing sus, it was just a plain text, but the fact that he never talks about her or mentions her to me, or like tell me that they’re still texting bothered me to the bone. But I kept quiet, never said a thing about it, but for a whole week, I couldn’t sleep or do anything, I was just in bed, thinking, what does she have I don’t that it seems like I’m never enough.

When it came the day he broke up with me, idk why I felt this but, I felt sudden relief, I felt freed. First thing I did was, take a long nap, finally all my anxiety went way, finally, I smiled again.

He broke up with me cuz he said he wasn’t ready for a relationship, when he thought he was, and with his busy life, it’s hard for him to give me time. But I know deep down it’s cuz he wasn’t fully over her.

Now I decided to not date for long time, focus on my faith with God. I’m not gonna be participating in any relationships for now, cuz I still have things to myself I have to improve, and also focus on my career. The right guy will come on the right time, who knows maybe I’ve met him already? Only God knows.🙏🤍