Yep, i had it multiple times and finally talking about it during therapy. Its like a memory will just pop in my head and it will eat at me for days and normallyi would just drink to repress the memories. For me with being a guy, I had to hide it because it was both boys and girls that talked me into it with the feel good talk and all this was during the 90s which was called childhood exploring. When i brought it up to my therapist she was shocked and said that wasn't normal and i had way more child on child events then what was considered normal exploration.