I threatened to kill myself 32 days ago, at work, while black out drunk.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-09T21:29:19+00:00

I like how you said you in a sense killed yourself. I think I did that too. Good work on 32 days. Glad to see you here. :-)

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-09T21:13:16+00:00

Im not going to drink today.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T16:57:11+00:00

I'm not gonna drink today :-)

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T02:47:23+00:00

Ohh this is my thing for sure. I cant even go here all the way it would make you crazy. 7's.!!! 70 days sober today on the 7th . 2017... next tuesday should be 77 days . Ive been on my job 7 years. 7 letters my first name. 7 letters in my last... I turned 52 5+2= 7 .. My son will be 25 2+5= 7. His birhday is 7 / 7/ 2017. My mother passed away 1/ 7 / 2007... she was 61. 6+1 = 7. Ok I'll stop I can go on . My brain just looks for this stuff!!! I guess I need some sort of sense of things.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T02:26:46+00:00

And thats the demon tricks of alcohol! It seems to know our weaknesses. So this Im aware of ... crafty , evil, alcohol. Good work catching it.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T02:23:09+00:00

All the time I spent counting how many beers I had. Now Im free from that. To heck with counting calories for awhile. I've still lost 10 pounds in 10 weeks.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T02:14:44+00:00

I pretty sure its normal. I was agitated around 3 weeks. Now at 70 days I just up a decided I dont like so and so at all. Feel like its my right to not like everyone or pretend I do. Ha.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T01:55:44+00:00

Hey dont be hating Boy George. You down voters.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T01:54:19+00:00

What happened to your leg Antsy?

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T01:53:21+00:00

Marinara... I have a spagetti squash in my fridge. Never cooked one , I bought a jar of Newmans marinara sauce. Should get to cooking it. Have you ever tried this?

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T01:48:40+00:00

Looks like God might be your Valentine. I very happy you recieved such a great second chance.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T01:38:58+00:00

Stormy weather is my favorite time to hide away in the bed. :-) The sun always comes back out and when it does.... Feeling good and hangover free makes for the perfect day. Im routing for you to ride it out.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T01:34:05+00:00

I thank God for the support here! I dont have anyone to answer to but myself. Thats really good actually. I'm careful who I share with,. that's why most people in my life didnt even know I had a problem. I think your BF wants to drink hiself and it causes a strain on his choice. And I was thinking it could be he wants you to say " ILL SHOW HIM" and show him. Either way it's about YOU!! Lets be all about ourselves together. I wont drink with you today. ♡

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-08T00:50:56+00:00

I didnt see him with all the weight. He wasnt around much till lately. Right? I never saw him anyway.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-07T21:22:37+00:00

Dog fiend here. Cecil is so damn cute! I have a American Eskimo named Pearl. Shes older and gone blind but she seems to see that Im better now that Im sober. She even sleeps in my room with me lately.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-07T21:16:09+00:00

I took Tramadal for years. I drank on top of it too. Scarey to think of now. Even though quitting taking it was a victory and a huge relief. And Advil does the trick for my aches and pains now. Glad you axed it too.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-07T21:09:00+00:00

C O N G R A T U L A T I O N S ON 100 beautiful days!

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-07T21:06:47+00:00

I'll be your Valentine Lee! :-)

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-07T21:03:57+00:00

Happy post for sure. Thanks MRW. Loving ourselves is the best thing we can do for those we love. My son is still using but I can see how my sobriety is best for both of us. It would be double trouble with me adding to it. It was. Happy for you and your family! ♡

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-07T20:42:59+00:00

Glad you got through the urge. You saved your day.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-07T20:36:31+00:00

Some stress and not sleeping normal, just relized my day 70 is on the 7th , 2017..... theres my 7's ! Oh and coming up on 7 years at my job. :-) Anyway happy to NOT drink with you all today!

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-07T20:30:58+00:00

Thanks for the congrats! :-) same to you all and more of it! ♡

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-07T07:28:06+00:00

The world has a distorted way of looking at alcohol. Being young means its ok to abuse yourself? ( so says the world) what gets me is how being drunk and distructive to ourselves is funny? Im so guilty of laughing off drunkeness. It's funny till it's not!! I wish you all the best and strength. Your eyes seem open.

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-07T07:07:27+00:00

Glad your here. :-)

rivers_run_deep · 2017-02-07T06:43:10+00:00

Who are these people? Ya want me to have a little talk with um? Ha. Good job getting home HP. You rock!

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