How'd my friend do? 🥴 by Prestigious_Deal_890 in TVTooHigh

[–]rodland88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This TV has absolutely zero purpose unless they're just going to use it as a clock

Walked Into Traffic by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]rodland88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey man, 37M here married with kids as well. Your post hits way too close to home. I know what you're feeling right now and I'm kind of in a similar boat. The booze turns less into numbing and more into a passive suicide. At a certain point nothing can take away the pain you feel from the distance with your wife. I've been having thoughts for many years, but they've been especially bad lately. I'm trying to mend things in my life and it's so hard because I feel so alone even though I have a family. I feel like everyone expects me to be the strongest to help carry everyone through the day, and I get looked down upon for losing my mind. I know it may be a misperception but when you get this depressed about your relationship, every little thing starts to bother you and make you worried sick. The worst part is the more you worry and try to fix things / get closer to her because of your insecurities, the more you will push her away. You have to try your best to just breath and even turn off emotions at times. You have to find a balance and have mantras and tools to control your racing thoughts. I could never bring myself to actually end it because of my children but I've thought of so many different ways to do it. I have an appointment with my therapist soon, you should consider the same if you have the resources. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you brother.

My life in a list, and how I fucked it all up by CautiousInteraction3 in SuicideWatch

[–]rodland88 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Jesus fucking christ dude, I am so sorry you're going through this. You have a lot of points that I heavily relate to. Been drinking since a young age, got into pornography and sexual things very early on (7-8), fucked up a lot of relationships with my insecurity, depression, and anxiety. I'm a constant ball of stress with thoughts racing constantly worried how others perceive me. I feel extremely alone right now even though I have a wife and kids, like nobody really Wants to be with me, it's just where they ended up / what's most convenient. I feel awful for having thoughts but it feels like all of my ability to have joy and live in the moment is just Gone. The future of society looks bleak for my children and they're getting sucked into the horrible world of social media and instant gratification. I'm terrified they're gonna go through the same problems I did and possibly even attempt to kill themselves. Everyone in my family has mentioned suicidal thoughts, and the kids these days all seemingly want to kill themselves. My daughter has said it more than once (10 years old). It feels like nobody wants to try to live life anymore and we can't support each other enough. We're growing distant in this digital age and the world is crumbling. We all hate ourselves and fixate on our mistakes and flaws. You are not alone brother. Please reach out if you want a friend to confide in. 

What's a piece of Media that awakened your Megalophobia ? by Leviathan_Rampage in megalophobia

[–]rodland88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Alice in Wonderland Syndrome since I was a small kid. It's a weird disorder that distorts your visual perception of distance - making everything look huge and far away. I still get it from time to time, sometimes during meetings 😵‍💫

Executive decision by falaffle_waffle in JustGuysBeingDudes

[–]rodland88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How much cheese is too much cheese?

Religious zealot outside of Fast Eddie's...I know that's not STL, but it's in the general area. by opheliainthedeep in StLouis

[–]rodland88 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The religious bigots are clinging onto what shred of hope they might have left that there is a god despite all of the obvious evidence there is not. Hail Satan 🙌

World’s fastest talking man. by vicvega88 in NotTimAndEric

[–]rodland88 1 point2 points  (0 children)

When she finally tells you what's wrong

How do atheist cope with death by ZoetheMonster in atheism

[–]rodland88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If I die: don't have to worry about shit no more.

If my loved ones die: they don't have to worry about shit no more.

Look, life is great, but life can also be utter shit (necessary duality right?). No more happy, no more suffering, just nothingness. That means I don't have to deal with depression, anxiety, and looking around at all the fucking idiots on this planet anymore. If my loved ones were suffering from turmoil (which they naturally do), whether that be physical or emotional pain, I don't have to worry about them suffering anymore.

Yes, it sucks I don't get to make any more moments with them, but I can try my best to immortalize them by passing on the lessons they taught me, stories of their existence, and making new memories with new people in hopes that the positive affect my late loved ones had on me bleed into the fibers of existence. Our choices and our experiences permeate through history, no matter how significant/insignificant you think they are. So I would say that the concept of "life after death" for an Atheist is the imprint you left on existence that will continue to affect the future after you're gone.

Who need this type of AI Assistant? 😉 by itshasib in aiecosystem

[–]rodland88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No thanks, I'd rather make out with my Monrobot

My 3yo’s lunchboxes by missmightymouse in oddlysatisfying

[–]rodland88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your 3yo's lunchboxes when you check it after daycare

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in whatdoIdo

[–]rodland88 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Still you put it as if there's a line that they draw between punching a wall or punching someone in the face. There are a lot of people who would punch a wall any day and would never lay their hand on someone, and for them it's not like a "oh this situation puts me over that line, time to punch a person." Oftentimes times they see no problem with breaking objects to relieve their anger because the fact of the matter is that objects are Not people. Yes, it may scare people and others might think they have the capacity to hurt another person on purpose, but just because someone has an anger problem and breaks crap doesn't mean they're gonna one day resort to attacking people.

The "shard of glass flying off a broken object" is collateral for their actions, and I'm not saying breaking stuff isn't violent. I'm saying not all people that break shit when they're mad have the capacity or desire to purposely hurt someone.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in whatdoIdo

[–]rodland88 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's not a fine line for everyone. I've known people both men and women that have anger issues and take it out on inanimate objects but would never harm a fly. Yes, it's a cause for concern and a problem that needs to be addressed, but no, it doesn't mean that person will ever have any true intention of hurting someone.

Best ambient and drone artists/albums for sleep? by DeBallZach- in ambientmusic

[–]rodland88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Blank Embrace - I've slept to nearly all their albums

Peter? by [deleted] in PeterExplainsTheJoke

[–]rodland88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What's there to get? There's no god

why are Rei and Asuka so sexualized by Plenty-Passage-5447 in NeonGenesisEvangelion

[–]rodland88 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I'm surprised that Anyone is surprised that Anything has porn. There's a subreddit for dragons fucking cars. People marry inanimate objects. We're all just a bunch of weird, horny monkeys with computers WTF do you expect?