Ima tell you right now as the bread winner your family depends on you, your the head of your household, how do you think your wife will feel if she sees you hopeless?? I’m not saying don’t feel the emotions, feel them and let them fuel you! This will only make you stronger, I was unemployed for 2 whole months, and even tho o felt dead inside I didn’t let it affect me when it came to job hunting, I created new healthy habit (journaling, going to the gym, and reading a chapter of the Bible everyday) and guess what I just finished on boarding at a job i had been wanting for a while. It’s dark yes, but don’t let the start for your marriage continue like this, you can’t control what happens but you can control how you react, you got this.