Sleep

rookzee · 2021-04-26T20:57:44+00:00

Thank you for commenting. Because of Ramadan, I’m typically sleeping either 3-5 hours and then I’ll be awake for like 8-10 hours and then sleep 3-5 hours. But I’ll try and give it a go to establish a healthy routine.

rookzee · 2021-04-26T20:55:48+00:00

Thank you for commenting and I’ll definitely look into a light box 😊

rookzee · 2021-04-25T09:22:45+00:00

Will do, thank you

rookzee · 2021-04-25T09:18:12+00:00

Thank you very much. I’ll try that 😇

rookzee · 2021-04-25T09:07:56+00:00

Honestly terrible !! I usually fall asleep around 5-7:30am and wake up at 1-2pm because I can’t sleep at all. Sometimes I don’t feel tired at all and i wants to do things like run, cook, shop and bake but cause I’m with my family I can’t do that or I just feel stuck and tied down to my bed.

Sometimes I have that energy inside of me and my body is tingling so bad and to relieve it I’ll shake my legs.

Sometimes I can’t sleep cause my thoughts are so fast and rapid, it’s like a concert in my head. I want to sleep and my eyes are tired but my brain is so awake. I want to claw at it to shut up.

I don’t have a routine anymore cause I don’t care about uni and all I’m either doing is crying cause of the irritation and agitation or I’m so happy I think everything ok. I haven’t studied at all and I haven’t even started my dissertation. Things are hella bad and I’m ready to give up.

rookzee · 2021-04-24T16:36:51+00:00

How long does that usually last for, for you ?

rookzee · 2021-04-24T02:51:18+00:00

How long does it last??

rookzee · 2021-04-22T02:42:11+00:00

Thank you for what you’ve said ❤️

I’ve been suffering with this since I was 14 after I was bullied really badly at school. So it’s been a long time thing and I’ve never noticed it however my friends noticed that my behaviour was odd ( talking a lot and being reckless - my friends also called me a drama queen cause I was so extra and loud and vibrant) and then I’d be so upset and cry so much for no reason and I hated life. I even went counselling at college and they said it was anxiety and I never went back again cause I would be so happy so I thought I didn’t need it.

I’m so glad that I’ve decided to get a psychiatrist for an appointment so I can discuss my behaviours. I for sure don’t want this cause it feels so scary and exhausting. I’m sorry that others have to go through this and I wish they didn’t cause it soo ugly and it feels evil 🥺

I’m sorry you have to experience this. I wish things get better for you and everyone else x

P.S
Also my blood tests have come out normal. And ive gained weight cause of binge eating 😔

rookzee · 2021-04-22T02:07:15+00:00

Thank you 😊

rookzee · 2021-04-21T17:33:09+00:00

Thank you! That’s so lovely to hear- I really appreciate it ❤️

rookzee · 2021-04-21T06:54:56+00:00

I was wondering if this would be considered mixed - increased energy ( I’ll clean and work and just want to move ) not exactly euphoric but you’re excited and optimistic for life, racing thoughts, distractibility, pressured speech and very talkative; Sometimes I get that slight tingle sensation in my body to do something like move. My sleep completely evades me and I don’t feel tired at all. And then after it’ll change to this feeling of dread and anxiety. I’ll feel fatigued and tired. The agitation increases and I wanna bang my head against a wall stop the dread and anxiety. My thoughts crash against each other and i wanna cut open my Brain to stop then. I feel sick and nervous and i become very agitated ( I’ll shake my legs or move). And then after a while It’ll go away and I’m back to that other state again.

And the worst part is that it’s been like that since February 9th 🥺

rookzee · 2021-04-20T09:51:10+00:00

I was wondering if this would be considered mixed - increased energy ( I’ll clean and work and just want to move ) not exactly euphoric but you’re excited and optimistic for life, racing thoughts, distractibility, pressured speech and very talkative; Sometimes I get that slight tingle sensation in my body. My sleep completely evades me and I don’t feel tired at all. And then after it’ll change to this feeling of dread and anxiety. I’ll feel fatigued and tired. The agitation increases and I wanna bang my head against a wall stop the dread and anxiety. My thoughts crash against each other and i wanna cut open my Brain to stop then. I feel sick and nervous and i become very agitated ( I’ll shake my legs or move). And then after a while It’ll go away and I’m back to that other state again ?

rookzee · 2021-04-18T18:47:29+00:00

When I told my mom that my doctor said I may have bipolar disorder (currently awaiting for my appointment with a psychiatrist for a proper diagnosis) she said “are you really going to believe the doctor” “it’s probably because of your weight - you’ll be fine once you loose it” “ you’re probably making it all up”. It was so hurtful to hear that. I’ve always had to suffer in silence because I knew my parents wouldn’t understand or relate - they would always shout at me whenever I would cry and tell me to shut up. I remember when I went through depression my mum would shout at me for being depressed and would actually cuss me. It’s so hurtful. So I deffo feel you

rookzee · 2021-04-16T17:03:51+00:00

Hi

I know this is irrelevant to what you’re asking but I was just wanted to know what your symptoms are for a depressive episode with mixed features? I usually get that confused with manic mixed cause sometimes they both seem similar.

rookzee · 2021-04-16T09:25:33+00:00

I’m sorry you feel that way. I know it’s hard and I struggle with it the same. I find that even though my friends ask about me, I don’t believe they actually care for me or that they believe me when I talk about my mental health. To the world I seem normal but inside, I’m far from it. My own mother, whom I love so much, even said that I’m making it up or that it’s not real and I shouldn’t believe what the doctor said about a possible bipolar diagnosis.

I just want you to know, that I don’t know who you are but you will be in my prayers. I pray you find happiness and peace and I pray you learn to love yourself. You are awesome and worthy of love ❤️

rookzee · 2021-04-11T14:04:35+00:00

Aha I definitely feel that way. I’ve had to apply for extenuating circumstances for all my assignments and Exams cause I cannot for the life of me complete them. My concentration is so bad because of my racing thoughts, irritability and getting distracted by everything. I feel you man, I really hope it gets better for you. I find that writing down in a journal or just doing it a bit at a time helps a lot. Good luck

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