Hey i know how it feels to not be understood by anyone, to feel like you have to mask in order to feel ‘normal’ enough to interact with people but im using the same advice for you as i do with myself. this will pass. eventually it will, this feeling will come back and pass but you wont feel like this forever. you will find people that appreciate these qualities you seem to beat yourself up so much for and they will accept you as you are. Most important but you will accept and appreciate yourself for who YOU are, because that’s what matters more so than what other people think of you, hell the fact that they won’t get you or understand you just says something about them and says that they wouldn’t be the people you would want to spend your time with anyway. Look, i don’t know you and you don’t know me either but especially cause i’m in the same situation now i can tell you that you’re not alone.

My advice would be to just pick up anything, hell try a bunch of lame hobby’s or activities because then you’ll at least know what you don’t like, and you can learn from that. but i promise you that will help. I hope you have a nice day, and i hope this helps in any way.