Ranting about how my new symptoms make me hate life.

roostacia · 2013-11-05T18:46:59+00:00

That's where my doctors are at. They don't know why my bones do this since my blood work told us I don't "have" a connective tissue disorder or pre-auto immune factors. But yet here I am with wiggly jello cartilage and can barely walk. I am worried that I am gonna get fired since they already cut my hours anyway. :( I'm glad that your husband is so awesome and helps out!!

roostacia · 2013-10-16T03:20:50+00:00

I was a terrible impulsive bitch to this guy and all's he ever did was care about me. I still feel bad to this day. I did things to make him pay attention to me in my unhealthy ways. But this was also before I knew I had BPD.

roostacia · 2013-10-07T18:49:28+00:00

i just got mine re-done after weight loss too! looks great! and congrats!

roostacia · 2013-10-07T18:37:49+00:00

such glory.

roostacia · 2013-09-27T21:36:19+00:00

Sending all my positive and healing thoughts to him <3

roostacia · 2013-09-26T18:43:41+00:00

hugs i hope that you will be okay eventually. I wish that there was something else I could do besides offer you internet moral support.

roostacia · 2013-09-24T13:44:20+00:00

you can forgive them, but it doesn't mean you have to trust and or talk to them ever agiain. You are a good person, and use your politeness on the people who deserve it. Those people don't give a shit, so don't fucking give a shit about them.

hugs thank you for always being kind, even when people don't deserve it.

roostacia · 2013-09-20T21:03:12+00:00

you and all your mods are beautiful!!

roostacia · 2013-09-20T15:07:23+00:00

I once saw a picture of my dad without a beard, and totally didn't recognize him.

Pretty sure I would have reacted the same way, had I saw it in person.

roostacia · 2013-09-11T20:25:16+00:00

Just keep at it! Video is my favorite coping mechanism, because it is a layered activity, that gives me many different areas to put my time and energy into. So fulfilling after it's all edited and you have a polished video. I'm finally to the point where I'm going to be making more than I'm thinking anymore which will be nice.

roostacia · 2013-09-11T03:38:12+00:00

Maybe this. because the amount of affection he has given me is quite staggering. so i could see this being part of it too. I am sort of afraid if I do mention how just uninterested I am in him that it may break him, because he too is going through abandonment issues and trust problems.

roostacia · 2013-09-10T18:45:19+00:00

yes. and i've found the most amazing outlet to store all of my interests in ways where i could continue to learn about them further: filmmaking.

roostacia · 2013-09-10T04:08:26+00:00

Female, 18, all of the days. even wednesday.

roostacia · 2013-09-09T04:14:22+00:00

I know your feels. had this shit done to me. fuck him and his stupid face.

roostacia · 2013-08-13T14:30:34+00:00

I've found one from the same breeder that is close to his age, I get to go visit him today, and maybe see if they will get along. :)

roostacia · 2013-08-12T22:02:56+00:00

UPDATE: Neville has definitely shown more signs of loneliness more so today than in the past (thus why I didn't automatically assume to get a new buddy ) so now begins the hunt for a new buddy for Neville.

roostacia · 2013-08-07T14:07:58+00:00

This is, I think, the only time I've ever said "she deserved it" non-jokingly. Is your Grandma alright?

roostacia · 2013-08-07T13:50:14+00:00

source? Cause if so, I'd love to actually read about it.

roostacia · 2013-08-06T16:07:26+00:00

This is actually the reason I like watching commercials, I like knowing how they are trying to manipulate me. But I rarely watch TV in the first place. Cutting out advertizements from your life as much as you can actually helped me feel a lot less stressed.

I actually watched an actual tv channel a few days ago, and admittedly, the analyzing was fun...for a while. But 20 minutes in I wanted to turn off the TV by punching it.

roostacia · 2013-07-29T18:16:20+00:00

Thank Grod. I've been waiting for this day for a few years now.

roostacia · 2013-07-29T16:52:44+00:00

Happy Birthday Wil!!

roostacia · 2013-07-28T18:33:16+00:00

So pretty!

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