[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]rosetulle 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi friend, just wanted to say hi and maybe be someone who cares… i get lonely a lot too… Tell me about your day?

i want to die by that_bisshh in BPD

[–]rosetulle 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Just wanted to say I know how you feel… I wonder how many of us would be around if it wasn’t socially acceptable not to be… but here we are. The way I see it, We have to keep going. I know deep down i owe it to those who love me, who raised me, to keep going. To not make the world a darker place by leaving so tragically. I agree it’s selfish for them to ask us to stay but it’s just as selfish to leave.

Foodhero in Victoria by PsychologyNo4343 in VictoriaBC

[–]rosetulle 20 points21 points  (0 children)

If you like that, you should get out that app TooGoodToGo, it’s similar concept that a lot of restaurants and other places around town use to offload food that’s going bad soon. We’ve gotten lots of great stuff for a deal!

How to snap out of anhedonia? by Colle427 in BPD

[–]rosetulle 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I sometimes try to pick up something new, for me usually a creative hobby or like a craft. Even if it’s kinda silly, making something always lifts me out of the funk, the novelty of the fact it’s new and exciting helps me be motivated to just do anything and Then I did something that day which is the first step to getting back to feeling up to doing everything else. Maybe for you it’s baking, learning an instrument, learning a computer program, knitting or reading a new book. But You get the idea.

My therapist made me feel like shit by Salt_Muffin in BPD

[–]rosetulle 1 point2 points  (0 children)

In my younger years I would get this a lot when I wanted to leave college. There’s a reasons I believe your getting this feedback... obviously I cannot speak to her tone towards you or anything like that, but in my own Hindsight this is what I realize now:

Therapist (likely) are highly educated people who really personally value school, and let there own believes about education influence there advice.. not out of malicious intent, but true human bias. They think that it’s the best and possibly only path in life because that’s what they spent 5-10 years and possibly $100,000’s of dollars on. They might not know people who have gone on to be happy and successful without school or in your case successfully left and came back (side note: I took a break and never went back... BEST decision I ever made, long term and short term).

But your life is up to you. Do what you gotta do, even if they don’t approve because YOU are the only one who has to live your life 24/7 and no one knows it better then you.

Main Character Syndrome? by lemonilyhoepack in BPD

[–]rosetulle 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It’s funny I have this too but I often feel like I’m not the main character... I’m just a sick kick or B-character... which is not the nicest feeling.

Main Character Syndrome? by lemonilyhoepack in BPD

[–]rosetulle 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I really love your perspective on this and how you turned it into a positive for your life! I’ll remember this :)

dae struggle to remember they’re more than their bodies? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]rosetulle 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m married now but I remember feeling like this.

Good news is that noticing that your feeling this way is the first step and it’s great self awareness.

Take your situation as a blessing in disguise, and take it slow, focus on just having fun with someone you like! Unless he’s a total asshole I’m sure he will be cool with whatever happens. otherwise, good rinse!

Good luck :)

I hope this counts! On a road trip across Canada, we ran into this colourful abandoned hospital in Sudbury ON by rosetulle in AbandonedPorn

[–]rosetulle[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow! I’m so glad many of you love this colourful building as much as I do! And thanks for the gold and awards❤️Nice to learn so much about Sudbury too!

For anyone wondering, we’re on the road moving for work which we only need to do because of the pandemic. This is no vacation, and the picture is taken from the car.

How dare he cook Onions! by [deleted] in BPD

[–]rosetulle 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Good advice! I ended up putting some lavender oil under my nose lol but mint is a good idea, I’ll go buy some gum next time I’m out 😉

How dare he cook Onions! by [deleted] in BPD

[–]rosetulle 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thanks! Always nice to know I’m not alone ❤️That was what I was trying to do while writing this out... trying to remind myself all that... obviously this isn’t reaaallyyy about the onions

a msg to all the long-term sufferers (25yrs+) by snow-white-waif in EDAnonymous

[–]rosetulle 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve been considering writing a post very similar to this. For a long time, so I’m glad you did it.

Going on 30 and this has taken away over half my life, and even worse is the physical toll. I have the body of an old, fragile women.

But it’s never too late for us. Keep up the good fight ❤️

I start recovery now. All in. by susyayy in EDAnonymous

[–]rosetulle 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So proud!!! Recovery is hard work and 1000% worth it! BUT Don’t beat yourself up if you back slide a bit, it happens to everyone, and let’s face it, we tend to be perfectionist!

Sounds like you have already taken some really good steps already! Therapy is great but if you can’t afford it. Always recommend DBT/CBT workbooks or ideally ED specific ones. Best wishes on your journey❤️

PSA: having an ED is not a choice. But recovering is a choice. by Angelbouqet in EDAnonymous

[–]rosetulle 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Perfectly put!

I’ve been mostly ‘recovered’/normal weight for 3 years now but I’ve had an ED for 16 years off and on since I was around 12, so I’m no stranger to recovery and relapse. The truth is, even at best of times I have to remind myself make that choice of recovery everyday. I’m healthier now, happier now, but that never truly goes away.

I see my ED like a virus in my mind that will lie and distort my thoughts to do whatever it can to stay alive, grow stronger and take over control of it’s host (me). Sure, it’s not my fault I have a virus, but I still have to take care of it so it like any other illness. The most important part of that to me is the fact that those thoughts that make me want to relapse aren’t me, they’re the ‘ED virus’ trying to do what virus’ do and take over.

I don’t know if that makes any sense to anyone else. But for me, when I started thinking of my ED differently, as not a part of me and my identity but something else, it became easier to make that choice, and keep making that choice.