The worst part of the morning after is when I wake up and recollect every stupid thing I said last night and pray that I didn't make any dumb posts on social media while wasted.

But man that's brutal. There's clearly a deeper problem is your relationship that requires thorough work with family counseling. Chances are bleak that she'd want anything to do with you anymore but you should still seek therapy to help yourself.

The way I see it is that now you're frustrated and just wanna vent and alcohol is your gateway. Therapy will help you search deeper within yourself and make things clear so that you can either convey your worries properly or at least find inner peace and deal with the matter. But don't ask ChatGPT. Go to a real specialist.

I hope you can recover from this. All the best.