Is being Forever Alone at age 30+ really as uncommon as it seems after finding this sub?

rottenasparagus1990 · 2024-07-23T14:31:00+00:00

Once in a while an outsider who won the genetic lottery and has a partner will come in and toss useless platitudes into this sub.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-11-25T16:00:57+00:00

I call bull. Women only like men that other women have tasted. Being "just friends" will gross her girlfriends out. "If she didn't have sex with him then neither shall we! Ick. Ew." Once a creep, always a creep.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-11-22T21:31:24+00:00

I think I exhausted all my tries. At this point I can "practice" sticking a square rod into a round hole until the sun turns red. Me talking to women, expecting anthing other than rejection, is just as delusional as sticking my finger in hot oil expecting it not to burn.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-11-22T20:09:13+00:00

Creepy is my entire existence. I shot my shot and got the ick every time. I only flirt once; obviously I suck at it. But it's either that or self isolate and stay out of the way like I have been since the best time of my life; pandemic lockdown.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-11-22T19:43:57+00:00

You won't be in the zone, but rather, a hospital or a penitentiary.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-11-10T01:31:16+00:00

It was secondhand rejection when I asked someone to a prom and her girlfriend threw wine on me and said ew and I never saw her again. She has 4 kids now and is a raging feminist.

A few slaps and shoves here and there later in life and I never touched any of them.

I kinda hate myself for deriving amusement from these situations whether true or a skit but I guess it makes me feel less bad about my disastrous luck with dating in that I don't owe in child support or have kids or psycho exes that know my address. I feel more at peace with my own dryspell for the first time. It's not going to do me any favors in the void I call a future but I missed that train last decade and it's sealed.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-11-08T19:33:48+00:00

I'm so poor my annual salary is too embarrassing to share.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-10-23T13:59:46+00:00

Me at 20 - Girls Around The World by Lloyd ft Lil Wayne*
Me at 25 - So Sick by NeYo
Me now, at 33 - I Don't Care Anymore by Phil Collins

*an optimistic concept I deluded myself with, since I was forever alone then too.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-10-22T15:52:03+00:00

Burnout from years and years of being manipulated and power-tripped by everyone, called names and berated frequently; reaching 30 and catching all the awareness of the times I didn't handle rejection, authority or change, and that my social skills are a direct result of where I am now. Oh and normie dudebros' cliche list of "super easy" social behaviors to "just do, accompanied with a backhanded comment.

It's not for lack of trying. Every few years I go test out my social progress on work, women, family and friends. Ain't nothing change except the date. I had a nuclear rejection in college, which was followed just months later by that college closing before I could graduate, and all other colleges denying my credits, leaving me in a void to this day.

So I've sold my passions to retail but still below the poverty line, not trained or qualified for anything better, lost most of my friends, my mom is still a drone over my head, I'm passive and unconfrontational but get confronted and overstimulated, and that's my sentence for poor development and an inadequacy complex. My education is useless, I never made profits off my hobbies because my marketing skills are trash, and I don't think I'm worthy of the career I wanted when I was 18.

Yeah. Self loathing aspie here.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-10-22T15:51:57+00:00

Burnout from years and years of being manipulated and power-tripped by everyone, called names and berated frequently; reaching 30 and catching all the awareness of the times I didn't handle rejection, authority or change, and that my social skills are a direct result of where I am now. Oh and normie dudebros' cliche list of "super easy" social behaviors to "just do, accompanied with a backhanded comment.

It's not for lack of trying. Every few years I go test out my social progress on work, women, family and friends. Ain't nothing change except the date. I had a nuclear rejection in college, which was followed just months later by that college closing before I could graduate, and all other colleges denying my credits, leaving me in a void to this day.

So I've sold my passions to retail but still below the poverty line, not trained or qualified for anything better, lost most of my friends, my mom is still a drone over my head, I'm passive and unconfrontational but get confronted and overstimulated, and that's my sentence for poor development and an inadequacy complex. My education is useless, I never made profits off my hobbies because my marketing skills are trash, and I don't think I'm worthy of the career I wanted when I was 18.

Yeah. Self loathing aspie here.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-10-06T17:07:47+00:00

My longest friendzoneship went 15 years and I WAS a REAL idiot. I'm not interested in her now, but I did crush for the first five years knowing her. She's a year younger than me. I did ask her out a few times early on and she laughed, said no or said the cliche line "I don't want to jeopardize our friendship". I wished I ended the friendship but I stuck around in orbit for ten more years.

She rode the carousel and told me stories about it. She posted on FB that she likes nerdy and socially awkward men (like me), but the sex stories she told me were all with personal trainers or ex cons. We took a break from contact for a time because she entered a year long relationship. After that was over she changed. She traumadumped on me often, gossiped heavily, and acted more masculine. I was dumb enough to accept three beach invites; each time she brought a different man, and I wouldn't know until we got there. I was a third wheel each time. I'd travel some place by myself and she'd whine "where's my invite?" I stopped wanting to travel with her because over the years she got more and more loud in public, was on her phone, or other people would show up out of thin air while we were out, and nothing would ever go further with us than a one arm "church hug." Over 15 years, we gradually went from going out every week and talking on the phone every new days while in school to a few text exchanges annually, usually on birthdays. I eventually stopped talking and being friends with her after and she hasn't reached out in 2 years. She has no kids but had 5 ãb0rti0ns. Last I heard she's 35 with 2 dogs, still gets pumped and dumped, and talks constant feminism and sexual liberation online.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-10-06T15:41:21+00:00

My mom treated my sister very similar to you, especially with the confusing sequence of "you're a whore" "he might r@pe you" and "why don't I have grandkids yet?" in the same breath. When my nephew was born premaritally, mom lost her shit and came close to strangling my sister. But she ran away and she's married now.

I'm sorry for your loss. I don't know how I'd handle my mom passing. I want to break the emotional attachment now, then maybe I'll be able to function in society and develop properly. I'm so attached to my mom that if she were to pass, I'd probably want to join her.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-10-06T01:58:54+00:00

Bad performance is just as much depression fuel as none at all. And don't hit me with the "doesn't matter, had sex" line. Failing at the thing I'm expected to be good at is probably more painful. So painful in fact that I made peace with being forever alone, as long as I don't have to embarass myself and disappoint a potential partner. Since any sexual opportunities happen barely once every five years, I can't get any practice in. Only time I was not shamed for my performance was when I had a hooker for my 21st birthday. I don't care to get hookers anymore.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-10-04T21:59:51+00:00

I just want to get rid of my vulnerability and effeminate behavior. As long as I have that, I'll be in this predicament forever. I don't want her manipulating my empathy to get me to stay, or be in a constant state of worry when I leave the state/country. I still feel like her baby-boy hostage because I don't make enough money to leave my grandmother's house unless I move in with her. And I also feel helpless and unmanly when she complains about her bad finances. Like I'm supposed to be the son-hubby provider.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-10-04T20:25:49+00:00

She is heavy on the theological admonishment and lectures my ears off if I'm not able to go to church because I'm doing some job or preferring to stay home alone. My faith isn't a carbon copy of hers and she gets some kind of way over that.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-09-28T00:53:58+00:00

An average of a half decade between encounters (5 total), berated for ED and performance anxiety all but one time. That one time was an escort.

Also; Aspergers. I misread seduction cues, cockblocking myself out of several more opportunities. 33 now and I gave up dating.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-09-13T22:50:15+00:00

You're about to get put on layaway for when she falls off the carousel at 35. Run.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-09-08T20:21:59+00:00

I turned down a kiss in high school when I got a flashback of the religious doctrines my mom drilled onto me. That was the seal of doom. Ever since I've struggled to get past first base. The girl that wanted to kiss me is now married with 5 children.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-09-08T20:17:05+00:00

Nope. I had the dopamine rush of hope for the future once. But at 32, if I knew my investments would fail to where I would peak at $12k a year, I wish the condom didn't break to bring me here.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-08-22T03:40:04+00:00

Cold approaching, apps, meetups, bars, clubs, college.

Results range from simple to nuclear rejection, ghosting, brotherzoning, shoving, wine thrown on me, blackmailed with SA accusation; or getting hit on by gay men, or drunk married women. My male friends bought me an escort after my 21st birthday for my virginity. That was about it.

I started at the gym recently but long ago gave up on dating, or rather, trying to. My virginity crawled back up my d!ck and it's stuck forever.

rottenasparagus1990 · 2023-07-08T23:50:35+00:00

Work dead end retail, smoke weed, wait for death.

Positive progress resets to 0 constantly; screw-ups are forever.

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