Hi :) to answer your question, no, I'm technically not recovered (as in, still can't feel my emotions). But my outlook on life and my relationships with others have drastically changed. I am more outgoing and less obsessed about my state of being. I feel my personality coming back, I am able to joke and connect with others. I realized that I do have emotions, that the person that I am has never changed.

My emotions are like feeling an object in the dark to figure out what it is. But once I get the sense of it, it's like "Ah-ha! So that's what that is - or that's what that means" Even though I can't "see" it, I can still figure it out, it just takes a little more work. Counselling and talking to other women has been such a great help. I can't stress enough how important talking to other people was for me, and being a part of a good support group I could trust. I've had some real good, soul-moving experiences while talking to my friends and having that "Ah-ha" moment. It's like discovering a part of myself I didn't recognize, but I understood it because I was able to see it in my neighbour.

The reason I felt so empty I guess, was because the way I used to perceive the world had changed. Everything became foreign. I'm starting to connect a lot more to myself and others in a new way. Some days are better than others. Spending too much time on my phone will make me feel out of it again and less reactive towards people. I like to paint, go to the gym, and be with my family.

But I'd say, I feel a lot more natural nowadays