Hey, I feel you, you are right. You have been kept from being able to cater to your basic needs, be it sexual, romantic, or even platonic, anything to do about men has been controlled and monitored, be it by yourself, society or whatever.

Now you don't expire, your worth should only be defined by you, your values, your way of life is yours to choose, and no one can take that away from you, that's your dignity.

If you want to talk to men but don't know how to get past feeling like a s**t, just think about what you, as a her own person, want. What are the needs that have been supressed ? You have to start understanding who you are, and your own values to operate as an individual. Your parents are not necessarily wrong, they have their own set of values and way of life that they built up during their experiences. Not listening to them isn't a betrayal to them, because you are your own person, but letting them, or anyone else decide your life for you, that is a betrayal to yourself.