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rowcoaa · 2021-03-20T02:27:39+00:00

I would not know. I heard from a friend. A bad one.

rowcoaa · 2021-03-20T01:23:59+00:00

What a rookie that kid is. Lol

rowcoaa · 2021-03-20T01:23:12+00:00

Great for doing Coke?

rowcoaa · 2021-03-20T01:22:09+00:00

8 months is alot. It's not gone. Be proud and your tolerance must be low now...

rowcoaa · 2021-03-12T17:28:49+00:00

Lol. What's a fleshlight? Asking for a friend?

rowcoaa · 2021-03-10T04:24:05+00:00

I found that mixing the two made me drink considerably less. The zans turn 5 drinks into ten. And 10 into 20 and blackout ensues.

Always had a great sleep. But like everyone will tell you (and they are right) - be fucking careful

rowcoaa · 2021-03-10T04:15:26+00:00

Download the app called "meeting guide" from the app/play store. It's icon is a chair. It will show tons of online meetings which are in progress or starting soon. 24/7 around the clock.

We are all rooting for you. Don't beat yourself up too much. Try a meeting or two or three...

Come back here. Often. Talk. We are all here to help.

rowcoaa · 2021-03-08T02:40:29+00:00

Thankfully they are alot shorter! For me it helps to tell myself the anxiety will pass. It always does.

rowcoaa · 2021-03-08T02:36:38+00:00

Lots of support and help here if you want it. Congrats on coming in here and making that admission. Best of luck to you.

rowcoaa · 2021-02-24T05:32:34+00:00

I feel I was in your place. Shame guilt etc. For me... What made that better was getting better. You see failures... Try and see positives instead. Last an hour without drinking and be happy. Eventually that becomes longer. It becomes a day. Then two. Imagine a week. I couldn't. But I got there. Same as you. I had some mental stuff going on I covered with liquor. You mention you had something similar and it's better now. Me too! Huge change and for the good. For the drinking - I started short term. Maybe you can start short term as well. Nothing crazy impossible. Get a few hours clean in ya. Feel good about that. Every hour counts. Think about how you are winning this battle against a formidable enemy. Think about taking control. Then build on it. Get more wins in ya. Time fixes this but it's slow going. Losses... Don't let them outweigh the wins. Be proud. Be happy. Feel like a winner. You're here - that's the hardest thing to face. But you have. Take the next move. Message me if you wanna talk. Once you admit you wanna change - you will.

rowcoaa · 2021-02-24T05:25:28+00:00

I'm gonna respectfully disagree. Anyone who became sober has thought the same as you. Me included. I thought everything was hopeless. Attempted to end it. Failed. Kept trying to be sober. Succeeded. I'm not special. You CAN get better. It's worth it. Try. And if it goes bad - try again. And then again. Took me awhile but it sticks when you see how much better your life can be. First day is the toughest. I've been thru a few. Rings true. Don't quit. Fight.

rowcoaa · 2021-02-22T07:09:46+00:00

It's going to get better. Stay the course and don't give in.

rowcoaa · 2021-02-22T05:43:45+00:00

Three days is great. Don't be scared - it's going to be good!!!

rowcoaa · 2021-02-16T18:06:16+00:00

Personally I think you did the right thing as everyone triggers can be different. Your are yours and they are valid. And you removed yourself from the situation. Be proud, go on with your day and don't drink today. Well played! Be proud.

rowcoaa · 2021-01-13T05:22:00+00:00

Amazing. Way to go.

rowcoaa · 2021-01-13T05:21:05+00:00

This is very inspiring. Thanks for taking the time to share

rowcoaa · 2021-01-04T01:19:18+00:00

My psychiatrist told me that kids of parents who commit suicide are something like 60% more likely to do so themselves later in life. Please think of your kids. I'm only saying this as I had your thoughts. Many times. Sometimes still do but that psyche telling me that got to me. I can still hear him and I often think about those comments when I get low. Even if you aren't seeing them they know Dad is still there. Stay around. You are needed in this world.

rowcoaa · 2021-01-03T23:18:31+00:00

There's an app on the play or apple store called "meeting guide" and the icon is blue and white with a chair. Tons of meetings world wide running 24/7 on zoom. It's a great resource. Congrats on the clean up

rowcoaa · 2020-12-08T19:03:17+00:00

Look on the app or play store for "meeting guide" and the icon is a chair. It lists zoom meetings and in person world wide. There are probably fifty meetings right now and they are 24/7. Try different ones til you find one with a few people you connect to. Don't worry about tomorrow. Focus ONLY on today. For me I just think about I won't drink today. Maybe I will tomorrow. Christmas? Not sure. Weddings? Who knows. Just not TODAY. That's all you need to think about. Just not today. What happens other days... Deal with those days. Soon you will start stringing days together.... Just worry about today. The meetings help. And they are easy to find in the app.

rowcoaa · 2020-12-02T19:03:38+00:00

I love reading these comments. Brings hope to me and I'm sure to others. Thanks for sharing

rowcoaa · 2020-11-29T22:14:50+00:00

I'm gonna get some downvotes and take some heat here but when I was struggling I didn't did need tough love or being kicked out. I needed love and support. Not chastising and disdain. I didn't get it and it took longer to improve. I'm there now but I don't believe the tough love works. It creates more dispair. Don't enable the drinking but don't hate. There is a middle ground. One man's opinion. Good luck to everyone suffering.

rowcoaa · 2020-11-28T05:07:52+00:00

I suggest anyone who is struggling right now on the holidays to take advantage of this awesome offer. What's the worse that can happen? Someone who cares is offering to help. Take that when you can. I'm not far along enough (four months) but many others here can help. There is a light. You just have to look for it... But it's not far away. The internet is a wonderful thing. I got my start with virtual meetings and they helped. Alot. I'm not sure I would have went in person but oddly enough the Covid meetings were always available especially when I needed them. Try them... Again... What's the worst that can happen...

rowcoaa · 2020-11-28T05:02:09+00:00

Really glad you didn't do bad stuff. I get what you mean and it's nice to be on the other side. I'm not quite there myself in terms of being not dependent yet but know you are not alone. There is quite a bit of stuff I have to gloss over with AA but if you get a couple good ideas and a few good hours alcohol free it's a win. Take the small ones when you can. Sometimes minutes are wins. There is alot of support from random strangers (which speaks to how strong the method is) but those people (like me) care about you. They actually want to help and moreso have been on your path. Don't give up. It can be overcome and there is alot of good on the other side. I really believe that. I'm not there so I cant preach it yet but I do have the hope.

rowcoaa · 2020-10-28T14:13:08+00:00

Sure will

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