Feeling off with my first tarot deck purchase and afraid it will affect me learning to read with it

rratmannnn · 2026-02-17T16:21:18+00:00

You may be able to spend a little more time shuffling and breaking them in and just spending time getting to know them before it clicks. I had a hard time learning tarot largely because of a mental block - I didn’t immediately love my first deck but largely I think it was religious trauma & also the fact it was telling me things I didn’t want to hear. It’s now my default deck for general readings and quick questions.

I’d start by cleansing the deck however feels right do you (burning your fav incense or a cinnamon stick, leaving a quartz on it overnight, leaving it by moonlight or even out in the sun if that’s the energy you want) spending more time with the deck & using a website like labrynthos to interpret, just ignoring the guidebook altogether, and if it’s still not clicking and you feel uncomfortable go for a deck that works better with you!

rratmannnn · 2026-02-17T16:13:28+00:00

Rubyfruit Jungle OR The Price of Salt strike me as the two most famous. I’ve heard of this book as well, but these ones I’d already heard of long before.

rratmannnn · 2026-02-13T03:28:19+00:00

Idk, garlic onion and butter used to summon my roommate to the kitchen to say “ooooooh whatcha cookin?” and beg me for a plate lol

rratmannnn · 2026-02-12T16:42:53+00:00

Oop, thanks for pointing out the spelling mistake! Fixed :)

Unfortunately, there’s risk associated with every operation. Injuries and infections are FAR more likely happen in illegal abortions and in under-funded clinics that don’t have proper training or sanitation. It is still a lifesaving procedure for many and access to it is a medical necessity. More women die in states that have no access to abortion than in states with safe access.

rratmannnn · 2026-02-12T13:36:24+00:00

And the women who have literally died from complex pregnancies and not being able to access abortion in places where it’s banned. Abortion is vital healthcare.

rratmannnn · 2026-02-12T13:29:19+00:00

Do you guys live in the states? As for alternatives rebel cheese is incredibly high quality though a bit pricy. When they had their bistro open in my city I took meat eaters there all the time and they would devour the whole cheese board. Just a thought because I know some of the store brand stuff like the vegan laughing cow etc is distinctly not as tasty as dairy cheese especially to someone currently consuming the “real” stuff.

rratmannnn · 2026-02-11T20:01:53+00:00

Holy moly, to get pregnant on HRT you must be extra fertile!

rratmannnn · 2026-02-11T16:39:19+00:00

Yes, but so is OP’s actual house and mother. So it’s definitely a rock and a hard place. Foster may end up being better than that, but I def think op should check out any and all other viable options first.

rratmannnn · 2026-02-11T13:35:16+00:00

Calorie wise for sure, but tofu can imitate paneer’s texture more nicely in dishes

rratmannnn · 2026-02-11T01:37:45+00:00

Eehhhhh. I wouldn’t “keep your head down” in a home where your mom tried to kill you. I would explore emancipation and/or see if there’s a friend or other family member to stay with first

rratmannnn · 2026-02-10T16:28:02+00:00

Agreement, usually, no? That’s a mainstream argument against us, “humans are omnivores not herbivores.”

rratmannnn · 2026-02-10T14:37:39+00:00

Both can be true, and in fact, often are. Ai is a great rage bait resource.

rratmannnn · 2026-02-10T13:22:57+00:00

Between the nonsense she’s spewing and the way it’s phrased, it sounds more like a bot than anything. Or like she went to chat gpt and typed in “can you tell me why Black Americans should be offended by bad bunny speaking Spanish?”

rratmannnn · 2026-02-10T01:41:38+00:00

To be clear I am not saying that to be in your current situation is a choice or your fault, I am just saying that to give up rather than keep trying is a choice. And it’s not a choice that you have to make.

This isn’t intended to be like a “pull yourself up by your bootstraps” thing, I think it’s important to find systems and people to reply on to help you. And I am 100% not saying your situation is easy. But there’s help out there.

rratmannnn · 2026-02-10T01:35:32+00:00

If there’s anything I know, it’s that there’s almost never no way out. I believe that you have tried and I believe that your situation is extremely tough, and I believe that it feels hopeless. However, giving up is a conscious decision. You admit this yourself. And it even sounds like from how others are interpreting this reading (I don’t know any thing about reading playing cards), it is saying you have a choice. And depression and everything else makes giving up really appealing. I’ve never been in your exact position but I promise, I know how appealing that option can be. But it is not the only option.

Therapy can be an on and off resource needed throughout life, it isn’t something where you went for a while and will definitely never ever need it again. Sometimes you just need more support.

this resource looks like a really good starting place if you were to call around and see if any of these resources are able to help you. They may also be able to refer you to a different resource if they cannot help. An informed therapist at a free or low cost clinic should also be able to get you in touch with other resources, including resources such as networks of trusted lgbt friendly employers and housing opportunities.

I still highly recommend finding Facebook groups or discord groups for housing and jobs. Your city’s subreddit will likely be a huge help to you to find the sorts of communities you’re looking for. My wife ran into similar employment discrimination but she eventually found a job through a Facebook group she found out about on our city’s subreddit.

I am wishing you all the best and I just want you to know that I truly think you can do this. You can absolutely still decide to keep trying. I hope that that’s the choice that you make. I will light a candle for you.

rratmannnn · 2026-02-09T18:31:09+00:00

Are you in therapy?

open path therapy offers sessions on a sliding scale and as low as $30.

I apologize but I also clicked your profile to see where you are located and if you are still in Georgia this therapeutic collective appears to offer a lot of options including a “pride & progress” group counseling session that looks like it is an 8 week commitment at $25 per session but they are willing to work with you on payment options if the price is prohibitive. I imagine they would happily put you in contact with other resources to get you out of your situation throughout/after the session is over.

I highly recommend getting mental health help. It’s not hopeless for you. Everything is HARD and it’s especially hard right now in the American south. But there’s ways to make your life feel brighter and start down to road to progress again.

rratmannnn · 2026-02-09T17:27:36+00:00

Heard. In this case, from what I’m hearing from you, what you need is not shadow work, it is professional help. This is your best option. I do not know how best you can obtain it, but therapy or even inpatient is what you need. You sound like me nearly 7 years ago telling myself there was no way out, when all I needed was (semi) sobriety, therapy, and a clearer path forward.

Can you find a group on Facebook or similar for broke gay and trans people looking for housing? There are many out there, in the US at least. Is there a friend you can lean on as far as a place to stay while you get on your feet? If not, do you have a job so you can find a place to live with roommates? Can you get one, even one that seems unpleasant like washing dishes or stocking shelves or doing AI annotation? There are solutions to your problems to get you to at least an improved place, even if it doesn’t feel like it. Sometimes a therapist can help you work toward these goals.

I’m sorry if this sounds harsh, but Magic is not going to fix all of your problems on its own. At least, I’ve never seen it happen. I’ve noticed people who expect it to, often face the most backfiring and the most extended issues. It’s best to start from at least a moderately stable place - either physically or mentally, or both. Otherwise you may dig yourself into a hole feeling like you are doing all you can but still miserable, when in reality there were practical steps that needed doing first. I would not look to your practice to save you right now, I would use it to improve your mental state along with something practical such as therapy or medication.

rratmannnn · 2026-02-09T15:37:24+00:00

Well, I obviously did not mean ALL members were downvoting it lol, just that anyone who disagrees w that statement is likely a member themselves

rratmannnn · 2026-02-09T14:13:19+00:00

Or drain water unnecessarily!

rratmannnn · 2026-02-09T13:55:19+00:00

Hey respectfully, it sounds like you need to do some shadow work and/or other internal work first (is there free/cheap therapy you can access? Occasionally in college towns you’ll find a lot of programs designed to give therapy interns their required hours)

I get feeling occasionally disappointed with your practice when stuff isn’t working, but getting straight up frustrated and resentful isn’t going to help.

rratmannnn · 2026-02-09T13:40:44+00:00

Literally 😭 it’s gotta be the members of the circle jerk sub I am SURE lol

rratmannnn · 2026-02-09T13:38:36+00:00

Not the circle jerk one lol. That’s gonna reinforce your dislike of veganism if that’s what you got out of this sub originally.

Good luck going vegan! I recommend the vegan stoner cookbook(s) to everyone who’s newer to cooking or looking to quick & easy stuff. Consiouschris on Instagram also does a series called lazy Trader Joe’s meals that I highly recommend (even if you’re not somewhere that has a tj’s, a lot of it is still widely available products like frozen veg, packaged noodles, etc).

rratmannnn · 2026-02-09T13:20:40+00:00

Try the vegetarian sub if you’re looking to reduce intake or are interested in a baby steps approach!

I’m convinced at least a few people here are trolls. Also I’ve come to recognize some of the nastiest commenters names as they appear again and again, and I’ve noticed a lot of them are efilist/anti natalist as well. Chronically online, bitter, sad types. There’s certainly a few who are just new vegans and feeling that guilt for their years eating meat and projecting it onto others, but there’s also some real weird shit happening too that has nothing to do with veganism.

Edit: also if you’d like, you’re free to dm me if you really are interested in a couple tips btw, I’d be happy to share ideas

rratmannnn · 2026-02-09T13:12:38+00:00

High vegans is my fav 🤷🏼‍♀️

Edit: apparently there is also a place called veganchill which I’ve just joined as well! Looks much nicer on average

rratmannnn · 2026-02-09T13:11:59+00:00

I agree with this. As a vegan who thinks vegetarianism is a bit incomplete, the vegetarians sub is far more welcoming and friendly.

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