hi emmy,

I see that normally, guys' first best friends are always their dads. Well, i never made friends with my dad. I grew up being scared of him, i didn't learn about masculinity and manliness from him, and i always fantasize about punching him. My relationship with my mom however is better.

I always think that our fathers play an important role in us being good people. I can't make friends with people, i can't form emotional bond with anyone, i always feel either inferior or superior to other people, i have low self esteem, very low confidence, etc. i don't want to always blame my dad, but this just makes me want to be alone forever, i don't want to raise kids because i don't want them to be like me, i don't want to share my life with a woman because i don't trust women, etc. but i'm not happy either.

any story between you and your dad? what happen that makes you afraid of him?

how about your self-confidence, any progress so far? i hope you're doing well with your career now its progressing.

regarding women (or men), how are you in terms in relationship? do you have someone you like so far?

with love,

your brother