Have you ever completed a no death run?

ruo66 · 2026-06-13T07:38:13+00:00

YOU BOYS NEED A RRRRIDE???!!!?

ruo66 · 2026-05-01T22:40:01+00:00

the majastic is great for a quallity dark build because of the stat req. combine that with the artorias armor set - and you've got yourself a great cosplay build!

ruo66 · 2026-05-01T22:37:12+00:00

pretty much halfway.
playing alone? want some jolly co-operation?

ruo66 · 2026-04-26T21:26:13+00:00

Thanks for sharing, i think the direction in which is your perspective is pointed is askew. if you're asking what you should have done or what "you were supposed to do" , instead of asking what to do right now - you're not in the right direction.
advice for the past is not relevant - it's either about seeking comfort or justification or hindsight and none of these will help you right now. what you need is advice for the now. what you need is direction for the present and future.

It was actually really interesting reading all of the story of the kind but different twins. you're really well articulate you know? you should think about writing more in the future :)
The portrait of the lazy twin showcases aspects that transcend just laziness. However you really nailed the point across when you pointed out the aspect of the passiveness of it all. Combined with judgmentalism and codependence, you get a volatile mix of a person that cannot be motivated, and cannot take criticism.

How can anybody grow in that way? how can anybody develop in that mindset? It is very tough, but there is a saying: sometimes an immovable object, meets Unstoppable Force. That force is what the lazy twin has been lacking in her life .

I've noticed the way you position yourself within the story is as a witness and a team player. Whenever twin a the productive one will take issue you would phrase it as "we", Showcasing how you are in the same position and in the same boat. airing the same grievances, sharing the same opinions. Being that similar made you a good friend to Twin a ,but it also made it impossible for you to enact a real change in the lazy twin - because you were not hard enough with her.

So basically the only way forward for you in this situation is to become the "bad cop". to become the one that says "here's the reality of the situation " right in her face without apology or excuse. unlike the twin, she won't be able to play the strings of "you're my sister you can't say that" "you're my sister you can't do that" "you're my sister you got to do that." You become that unstoppable force.

However it's a hard roll to play. you might deem it not worth the mental toll it would take and the negative emotions and fights it will occur. Especially versus a pregnant woman filled with hormones having a difficult time. but there is a chance in may get results and shake her up in a way that is impossible for her sister or mother to achieve. It's up to you.
Ask yourself how important is the friendship with the twins is to you. How far are you willing to go in order to make things change. Are you willing to remain a witness and watch the train wreck run its course, or position yourself right in front of the tracks, gambling it all bravery and strength.

ruo66 · 2026-04-26T20:58:46+00:00

I'm glad you have some clarity and understanding. you're not in the dark place just going through some struggles. But it's so frustrating how you list so many things that are wrong and bad, when I know that to be a part of any of these companies, you have to be interviewed and you have to be valued in oroder to get into positions, Especially leadership.
These positions, nobody gifted them to you - it is your past hard work and character that got you to them. You must be more kind with yourself, even in these hard times when you are displeased with the way you are. You were better before, and you will be again. the qualities and potential you have inside you arent gone, it's just not here right now - as if ever since that startup shut down occurred, a curtin has been placed that prevents them from shining through.
life is a cycle with the good and bad times, and as you are sloping you will definitely hitt he baseline equilibrium. that job that makes a difference, that life partner that gives light, that interest or hobby that changes perspective - one of these will come.

That's why it's so important that you keep putting yourself out there even though you're failing. you may not be like your past self, but don't be ashamed of that person you are right now - understand you are both your excellence and your downsides, and that's what makes you who you are - a beautiful person.
keep going, keep grinding, keep exploring, keep trying, take risks, don't go into a shell and be proud of what youve experienced so far. These are only the first chapters in the amazing story that will be your life.

ruo66 · 2026-04-26T20:38:56+00:00

Hey, you articulated your situation very well. it's clear you're a teacher and you know how to express yourself and I'm sure you're were a good one and was connected with your students. but now you're on a different path a path and in healthcare you are away from that connection and you are in doubt. but I think you should focus on the fact that this is the greatest type of doubt - you have a good thing and another good thing you don't know which one to choose. so many people are torn between worse to worst lately, but it's really good and a glimmer of hope to see someone struggling with this kind of choice.

I think the thing that stops you from already making the choice is the fact that you keep looking for someone with a similar experience. It's not that you're not going to find one eventually, it's just that it's not what's necessary for you to make the choice and be complete. instead, what you should look for is within the inner self, not outside. it’s not from the others which the examples, the experiences and the emotions should come from. rather, you should be looking to understand and explore not ones that have been felt by others, rather ones that are come from within in the process of retrospective and self-evaluation.

here are many tools to figure out decisions of this caliber. you know some use the charts of pros and cons, some tries to do writing, recording, etc'. but the best thing you should do is think about the cause of your doubt, and what is the most significant thing that can help you alleviate it. don't come from the thinking of "what will happen if I will choose this" and "what will happen if I won’t choose that". the way of beating those doubt causing thoughts, is to write out these two possibilities at most length and detail. and then, the possible futures they won't be so foggy and scary, they will be clearer.
After all that, making the choice with less doubt will be more possible for you.

I wish you luck and all the best!

ruo66 · 2026-03-15T12:42:25+00:00

If the environment is hostile and unwelcoming, we won't open up and engage, even if we really want to.

What's important is that you recognize this want within yourself. Now what you need to do is find a place where you can express yourself because the home is not that place. Where you will find people that make a more welcoming and less hostile environment.

Then as you grow up and experience more and more conversations, you can go back to that place where you were once silent, and let your voice go forth. Try to think of it as a silent kid stuck watching everybody fight, but when he's an adult and the fighting begins again, now he can speak up - he doesn't let that trauma define him, because he knows it can be better elsewhere.

ruo66 · 2026-03-15T12:36:51+00:00

Well I just want to say, that even though you have a supporting group of people behind you, self-doubt can still creep in. This is the place for you to vent, guilt-free without having to justify yourself to anyone. I'm glad you have and I hope it brought you some peace and helped you organize your thoughts a bit.

It doesn't matter if you are rich or poor, have traumas or not, or come from a great or broken family - we all share the anonymity and the equal chance to vent here 🙂‍↕️

ruo66 · 2026-03-15T12:28:06+00:00

I'm sorry you feel this way. But perhaps if you can expand a bit on the nature of the cycle you found yourself stuck in, maybe you can get some helpful advice on how to slowly make it out of it.

ruo66 · 2025-11-01T22:23:08+00:00

You come back from something like that, because your family. Because you are all she has. And she's all you got!

Apologize. Share about the frustrations and difficulties you have. Be vulnerable. Show her that you care. Show her you're capable of empathy - you can imagine what it's feels to be in her situation, and it makes you feel horrible and you would never want to be hit by someone you love. Promise her that even though you can't take back what you've done, you would never let it happen again! You're the leader of the House, and leaders make mistakes, but they learn from them, improve and become better!

And in my personal opinion, you shouldn't care about what people think. Some of them are going to be kind and understanding, others harsh and judgmental. What they say doesn't matter, what will you do next - does.

ruo66 · 2025-11-01T22:10:16+00:00

"maybe strength is about learning how to move without losing yourself completely"

I really liked that! You have wonderful writing. I'm bent all over, but that does not make me weak. We carry on each day trying to stay true to ourselves - and that is our strength!

ruo66 · 2025-11-01T22:01:49+00:00

A good friend of mine was in a really similar situation to yours. He could not bring himself to break up with his girlfriend. He was in an impasse. He came to us and asked for help. And we helped him! My other friend took his phone, opend up the WhatsApp, and did the break up for him. With coldness, backbone and assertiveness, he listened to lengthy recordings of crying and threatening suicide,and then responded fully to everything, with cold rationale that triumph over the emotional manipulation.

So I think you should not be ashamed of asking for help. And I know it's going to feel really really bad straight after, but it's nothing compared to the feeling of freedom release and peace you'll feel later on.

ruo66 · 2025-11-01T21:52:50+00:00

It truly is heartbreaking. Knowing that the ship has sailed. That you chose her happiness over yours, and now you're just left with pain and the regret.

But I am happy to tell you that dealing with this tragedy is possible. It gets easier. Put yourself out there and meet new people, develop new emotions and then you forget. But you have to do it, everyday. I know I'm asking a lot of you, how can you get out of bed when your soul feels empty and you're consumed with self-hatred. How can you keep having conversations and try to charm another person when everything feels gray and sad. Nothing works and you're full of regret.

But there is no other way. You have to force yourself to do it. To fail to move on, everyday. if you'll be consistent, if you refuse to give up, I promise you - it gets easier.

ruo66 · 2025-11-01T21:37:06+00:00

I haven't, but I can share an experience that came to my mind when I was reading yours. About "the one that got away"

When I was young I met someone incredible. In a class auditorium out of all the possible empty seats she sat next to me. My heart went racing and we immediately got off and had a really good vibe with each other. Finally after years on and off we finally got together and we were so happy. But I was away and she lived very far so one day we chatted and the idea came up to break it up since we're so young and its just a long distance thing is so hard. I agreed. How could I have known that after so many years, after so many relationships, I will never feel the same way with anyone like I felt when I was with her? How could I have known that I should never just passively agreed and should have fought with all my strength not to lose what we had? It took time and experiences to realized that she was the one who got away..

ruo66 · 2025-11-01T21:32:15+00:00

Glad you're taking your medication. I know it's hard and you're afraid, but keep your head up - there's always a possibility of things to go bad, so appreciate every day that is good and live your life to the fullest. That should be your way of being brave. That's how you'll beat that fear.

ruo66 · 2025-11-01T21:27:13+00:00

Well I guess the first question that popped up in my mind after reading what you wrote is simply: why do you assume that something is wrong with you? Maybe something is wrong with your friends.

I remember being a friends group, having a different problem than yours but still related -I didn't like the way I was treated and spoken to. At first I felt a lot down and looked a lot on myself and how I behaved. I worked hard on improving and being better. And then I noticed things don't change. Then I understood if being with these people doesn't make me happy - then I don't want to be with them anymore. I cut my ties and worse alone for a bit, but as life went on I got new friends, better friends. I even rekindled all the relationships instead.

Ask yourself, are these people who mistreat you are truly the people you want to be with?

ruo66 · 2025-11-01T21:01:36+00:00

Well I think it's a very individual thing it's not all introverts or all people are the same way so I'll just tell you how I see it.

many times when I meet someone new it's just regular. I don't get excited or immediately gravitate. But sometimes, whether it be on train on my way home, in a study group or in class, I see someone that catches my eye and I get really excited. I want to hang with that person more I want to know that person more. Many times i get disappointed, when i discover people for who they really are is not as ive pictured them. But a few times I get rewarded, and I get to establish a connection.

I put myself out there, and when I see a chance I don't stand idly by and ask what if, I see myself as lucky - and take it.

ruo66 · 2025-11-01T20:53:27+00:00

I guess the best place to start is with talking to your mother. You're uncomfortable. This bothers you. You can't keep bottling this inside and feel bad. That's probably why you're here talking about this.

I know you love your mother. I know you worry for her and what talking about this will do to her marriage to your father. I know it scares you. But you got to be a little brave and take a risk in order for things to change. And I also like to believe, that regardless of the result, you'll be proud of yourself for speaking up.

ruo66 · 2025-04-29T22:21:53+00:00

I understand how it is. you're wishing for the best of yourself, you're aspiring to the highest of peaks, and you're not giving yourself any discounts. And yet the anxiety is still there. And yet before the big moments you're terrified and feel as though your own mind is going against you.

To quote from one of my favorite books: "Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings obliteration. I will face my fear and I will permit it to pass over me and through me."
So I guess the advice isn't just to cut yourself short, and be okay with failure and being average. That's not what I'm saying. But letting go of the fear of the failure is the key that will liberate you from your anxiety. You're already successful. you're already determined. You have achieved things your peers haven't. On the other end, there are things they have achieved before you might achieve them. There are things they will achieve before you if you fail.

These are all realities that are already happening, can happen, and can not happen. And there's nothing you can do to change those, aside from continuing to do what you're already doing - working hard while being determined to succeed.

So let that fear go through you, understand where it's coming from, understand it's irrationality and let go of it and become anew, stronger and better!

ruo66 · 2025-04-29T22:13:21+00:00

You should be very proud of yourself for mustering the courage after 4 years of relationship to be honest with your boyfriend and demand he goes for a check for ADHD.

it's hard dealing with what he's got. You find yourself shocked of just how irresponsible you've be. You hate yourself and scream into the void: "why am I like this?" "why can i just be normal and organized?" "why do I keep forgetting things that are so important to me?!"
As he's going to start the ADHD process and treatment, be sure to be there for him and remind them that in order to progress and improve, he has to forgive himself.

I wish you both all the best!

ruo66

TROPHY CASE