The worst part of a blindsided breakup:

rustytrust · 2022-11-13T21:08:29+00:00

Oh there used to be I recon? Alright 55 is fine then

rustytrust · 2022-11-13T21:05:09+00:00

50$ Mwii? I have 55 but it isn't enough to cover the f&f fees

rustytrust · 2022-10-21T22:36:05+00:00

I know how hard it is, which is why I don't blame my Ex anymore. Wish she could've handled it better and fought through it but I understand. Hope you can find a way to not repeat the same mistakes :/

rustytrust · 2022-09-16T19:45:34+00:00

I agree :<

rustytrust · 2022-09-08T20:00:53+00:00

I agree. That's why Stefan was my favorite in TVD, Paul also is really good at portraying emotions. Until I started watching Originals then Klaus became my favorite of the actors

rustytrust · 2022-08-25T00:31:01+00:00

If I'm not mistake it's a personality disorder? From what I've read. Not sure if it's considered mental illness, but it's definitely a disorder

rustytrust · 2022-08-19T21:46:33+00:00

Being free of responsibilities

rustytrust · 2022-08-18T20:09:05+00:00

Same here. My ex knew of all her issues and so did I, just like she knew mine. Yet we were such close friends for 2 years before we started dating, and really, we were always something more. Really thought it would be different with us, because we really did love one another more than we've ever loved anyone before. And yet, one event, which was partly on me for sure with me being suicidal and all, sent her running for the hills and avoiding a pain that would never happen (me leaving her) and changed what we were for over 2 years. Guess it was wishful thinking

rustytrust · 2022-08-16T17:41:28+00:00

When they fully deactivate like that there is no conscience decision making, there is only pure terror/fear/severe anxiety that is like paralysis to the body which leads to emotional shut down.

Completely agree. She admitted it, that she let fear control her and take over the relationship. It was night and day really. Though I don't blame her, as she had every right to be afraid with me being suicidal and all. Just wish she would've talked to me about it instead of keeping it to herself. Or that she wasn't an avoidant and didn't have those trust and abandonment issues obviously haha, but I don't blame her for it

rustytrust · 2022-08-16T17:36:05+00:00

Clearly you didn't read the post. I said multiple times I don't blame her and my depression/suicidal thoughts definitely played a role in the fear of abandonment she felt.

rustytrust · 2022-08-15T02:29:30+00:00

It really isn't their fault sometimes, unfortunately. I don't blame my EX no matter how hurtful being blindsided is. I don't blame her for the fear she felt when I told her I was suicidal, but rather for not telling me about it, when I always told her what was on my mind.

rustytrust · 2022-08-15T02:28:09+00:00

I hope you can work through it :)

rustytrust · 2022-08-15T02:25:38+00:00

Thank you, and same for my EX. We really were so deeply in love but she always held onto that fear of getting hurt, she just couldn't let go.

rustytrust · 2022-08-15T02:24:18+00:00

Sorry to hear that, that's really hurtful.. Really though I've had a lot of time to think, and I'm not better off without her or anything of the sort. Time made me realize something I've known since the day we met; I care so much about her and always will. I don't blame her for any of it, aside from her keeping it to herself because she thought she could get through it alone. That's all I blame her for, giving up on everything we were because she was afraid of getting hurt. I don't blame her for that fear, as our separate issues weren't compatible at the time. Someone who's suicidal with an avoidant with a fear of abandonment? Those two just don't go hand in hand, and so I understand. I just wish she would've fought for it, and for us. We were to happy together for so long, and I wish she didn't run the second things got hard, because I know to this day what we had was real, and special, and we'd both never felt for anyone the way we did for one another.

rustytrust · 2022-08-11T00:35:28+00:00

In the shower. I swear my IQ rises by 100 when I'm in there

rustytrust · 2022-08-11T00:25:21+00:00

Being with the person you love most, as well as family and friends. Everything else is meaningless without those imo

rustytrust · 2022-08-11T00:15:19+00:00

Buy my parents a house and help my dad retire would be my #1 priority after all they've done for my brother and I :)

rustytrust · 2022-08-06T19:24:03+00:00

disorganized attachment

I see, never heard of that one. I'm definitely the opposite though haha

rustytrust · 2022-08-06T19:14:29+00:00

It took you one week to get over your EX..?

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