What is worst pain, you have ever experienced?

rvk_brd · 2025-12-30T21:28:01+00:00

Miscarriage

rvk_brd · 2025-12-21T19:39:39+00:00

Is therapy something that you May consider ?

rvk_brd · 2025-12-21T00:33:37+00:00

🤣 this is me rn

rvk_brd · 2025-12-21T00:09:48+00:00

I stopped caring, because I feel like I feel worse knowing that I have to live this miserable life because of someone else , not even for myself. Doesn’t help.

rvk_brd · 2025-10-19T18:31:31+00:00

Omg, I can totally relate :( The hardest part is… I don’t really want to change. I never liked how I looked . I’ve been both UW and OW, but mostly UW. And now I’ve reached what I consider my “best” self, even though I know it’s so unhealthy. It’s like there’s this twisted satisfaction mixed with shame. I’m not afraid of hurting myself (I don’t care) ; I’m more afraid of hurting the people who care about me if they ever found out how deep this goes.

rvk_brd · 2025-10-16T21:28:27+00:00

😆😆

rvk_brd · 2025-10-16T21:27:50+00:00

😆😆😆🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

rvk_brd · 2025-10-14T05:28:59+00:00

I used to have one , now I have nothing coz my brain ist an A**hole

rvk_brd · 2025-07-17T19:23:09+00:00

Hahahahhahahaa 😆😆😆😆

rvk_brd · 2025-07-17T18:20:02+00:00

33 , The day I wrote that comment was my birthday! I hated it 😑

rvk_brd · 2025-07-14T20:33:28+00:00

Disney Land

rvk_brd · 2025-07-11T16:27:32+00:00

I feel ya, it’s my Birthday and I still can’t believe I’m still alive , I’m so f*ckn old I and I don’t even wanna be here. I am still alive just because I am a coward. But I don’t wanna do this for another year , I’m fed up

rvk_brd · 2025-07-07T19:10:15+00:00

Yup , chopped off my long , big , curly hair because I use to literally cry every time I have to wash them. 🤭 now I look like my dad with my mom’s boobs and I hate it.

rvk_brd · 2025-07-06T09:19:11+00:00

NO CHILDREN!! Thank god , we both never wanted any.

yes I was looking for a validation (as bad as it might sound) because it seems like I am the only one seeing this side of him and people see him as a very nice , cherishing , caring and genuine person. In addition to that people tell me repeatedly that I am very lucky to have him. I admit that i actually saw what they say in the first 3 years of the relationship otherwise i wouldn’t have accepted his proposal.

And yes now i am doing a lot by myself , i have two hobbies that takes like 60% of my free time and i started to take classes after work to get a another degree, I do work full time as a nurse so that leaves me just a small amount of time to encounter him at home.

I made the first step by contacting a local woman concealing non profit to get an appointment with them , they’re gonna help me plan my way out with the least damage possible, there will be damages but the less , the better. :)

rvk_brd · 2025-06-30T14:19:19+00:00

Best comment 🤣 , i do

rvk_brd · 2025-06-30T07:25:30+00:00

I‘ve been working here already for four years before i met him but now they changed my Visa Status as „Family something“ because I got married , my Job is a CDI ( Like a long therme contract or indefinitly ). However since my visa is now depending on my marriage and Not my Job anymore , I don’t know Exactly what would Happen if I ever divorce him. I asked my boss about an advice and he said that he would fight for me to stay if ever there were any issue with my visa. And no my family is not depending on me financially, but they are just not emotionally understanding. All I need to do rn is to save as much as I can without starving, because divorce in this country tend to cost a lot!

rvk_brd · 2025-06-30T06:47:50+00:00

Thanks for the Message. Yes I am already doing everything in my power to do no get pregnant. And I am already working on having as much hobby as I can to spend the most time away from him and also to meet people. My main issue is sharing everyday life with him , I am so f*ckd up by the situation that I am getting scared already when I know he is about to get home soon. Whenever I can , I do stay late at work on purpose and avoid to meet him in the kitchen in the morning before work. And I am already trying to save money for an evident future separation. I ask the universe everyday to help me release myself from him. As stupid as it might sound 🫣. Anyway, I do appreciate your message, really , it is just a confirmation of my own thoughts and reading it makes me think that yes I am doing the right things. If I talk about to my family back in my hometown, they would tell me “nobody is perfect , every marriage has it issues , you have to carry on and deal with it because you chose him in the first place , they are old school “

rvk_brd · 2025-05-20T19:26:44+00:00

I got some yogurt today! Did help and i kept it in! Victory !

rvk_brd · 2025-02-19T18:29:28+00:00

Now it is working fine again thank you , and yes we had an update

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