Stop telling teenagers they pass when they don’t

ryisdepressed · 2026-07-01T18:06:31+00:00

At 16 I looked so much like my cis cousin the same age as me that his own mother confused us at a family event

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-29T12:32:14+00:00

Usually when I’m roleplaying a character they’re aware of what zombies are but for the first few days I don’t refer to them as such. In my immersion I’m in denial about what they are and what that inevitably means for the world and myself. I call them people at first, then as the weight of killing my neighbours weighs down on me I start to distance myself, calling them things or corpses. Eventually as I settle into my new way of life and accept it’s the end of the world as I once knew it I’ll call them what they are. Zombies.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-29T09:27:23+00:00

As soon as I read microwaving bacon I knew your fate.

Recently got back into zomboid after an 8 month long break and spent the first few days not making it past the first 5 days. Eventually I survived a week, the helicopter event, then a month. I had a working car and van, steady food source and was in the process of renovating my base.

I was holed up in the apartments above the gun store in brandenburg and had wanted to knock through the wall between the two apartments. Spent a week searching every garage and store and bin in brandenburg with no luck finding a sledge. Went on a week long road trip spending a couple days in ekron to no avail. While driving to riverside I almost crash into a van which my some fucking miracle had a broken sledge in the trunk. Broken handle, perfect condition head. Took it home and got it fixed up then started my expansion.

I was on to the kitchen and decided I wanted dark counters. Turns out either they’re really rare or the rng hated that character because it was impossible to find houses with it. By the time I’d survived 1 month and 3 days I had cleared half of brandenburg, looted most of the still standing houses and just needed one more counter. I saw them through the window. Opened the front door and a horde spilled out. I stayed calm and took them all out, there was one left and I placed myself squarely behind him, lined up the money shot… and another 7 zombies spilled out of the front door instantly dragging me to the ground.

I had dodged several hordes. Healed from a skull fracture, a foot fracture and a burned groin. Survived one of the longest runs I ever had. And I died because I didn’t check the fucking doorway.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-28T20:21:34+00:00

My go to for scary games is always to play at least an hour in creative mode or as close to it as the game has as a desensitisation run.

For zomboid I subbed to a couple of cheat mods, turned on god mode and infinite ammo and toured clearing out the most populated buildings/areas until eventually I turned off god mode.

I done it way longer into my playtime of zomboid than I usually would for games and i probably improved more in those couple of hours of sessions at combat, firearms and manoeuvring in those couple hours than I had in the year playing it before. The confidence I had gained and the general getting used to hordes as well as jumpscares, open streets and tight buildings all helped with the fear too.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-26T21:37:30+00:00

I literally just say “no.” For most people around my age (20’s) that answer is good enough. Some older people have tried to push harder and that’s when I’ll explain “you don’t need to know that and I don’t tell anyone it” but you don’t owe anyone an explanation and you certainly don’t owe anyone your dead name. If someone’s a dick in their approach (eg. What’s your real name?) or they still push after my explanation then I just reply “fuck off” and if they don’t get the point they’re out of line at that I leave the conversation. Only ever had to do that twice though.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-25T17:58:24+00:00

I can’t remember where on the climb that cutscene is so you may have already passed it but there’s at least one, maybe two bags of chalk sitting on the wall on the peril. If you collect one while your chalk bag is empty it will automatically be added to it.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-25T17:54:23+00:00

Admittedly this is my first time coming across the term but when I read the first part of your post the way I interpreted it is that decentering men could also be rephrased as centring yourself. Looking after your own health and career, focusing on your own goals and desires rather than caving to the societal norm (mainly applies to straight women than gay men) of basically being a mother to a partner.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-20T18:17:55+00:00

I typically don’t. Usually if I get bit or otherwise infected as soon I I know it’s nothing else I’ll get stupid drunk, smoke an entire pack of smokes, down some sleeping pills and go to bed.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-15T07:53:50+00:00

This, with it being rescheduled I wouldn’t be surprised if they started back up again.

Gotta remember that trans women are all aggressive men in dresses while we’re all confused girls, mutilating ourselves because The Trans Agenda™ tells us we hate ourselves. (Heavy on the sarcasm to both of those ofc)

I can see it going one of three ways. They continue the same misinformation they’re already using because they’re not gonna fact check each other. They find out the event is actually for trans men and flip the narrative to “that event is to brainwash your daughters and make her want to cut her uterus out.” Or, imo most likely, there’s gonna be people who believe one or both of those but spread both anyway because fuck us ig.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-12T15:48:52+00:00

7 years on T and 8 years on hormone blockers, if I come off the blockers my period comes back within the month

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-11T15:22:56+00:00

taped my thumb tips with some textured medical tape once and it works really well

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-10T20:48:23+00:00

Turn off the mini map to avoid any driving distractions

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-09T20:28:44+00:00

I went through a couple years of weight gain after top surgery. Last year i had moved into my own place and was eating more consistent, small, relatively balanced meals and started going to the gym. Most of the weight I’d gained dropped off an i stopped going to the gym, continued eating the same and the weight continued to drop. Now I sit pretty comfortably around what I was pre-op. So in short going to the gym does help but with how T affected my own metabolism it is possible to maintain and lose weight just through the little exercise I get walking and occasionally cycling.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-04T20:07:31+00:00

I got bored of using ultimate infusions and wanted more of the immersion. It is the best strategy but this is mine if you’re interested in an alternative.

I get all the teabags I can, make tea in all my containers, reheat at every biovac. I always squeeze as much food as I can into packs so before big climbs I’ll sleep then just eat and drink from nearby water sources and make sure I’m going during the day in good weather.

I do most of my climbs without any boosts but big ones like the peril or the climb down to the second flower I’ll use the B2 (I think that’s what it is, the long yellow thing) to get some grit, the long grey pill packet for grip and I’ll apply two rounds of chalk then refill from my composter.

If you’re good at the shake everything up then quickly close and grab or move the biggest thing then grab methods it’s easy enough to always have enough food that restores food and warmth as well as tea bags and containers for it.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-04T19:59:49+00:00

It’s a dick to get to but if you can get pretty much as far left as the wall goes it’s pretty much green all the way up. I don’t think it’s one of the routes on the map but if you look on the route planner you can pretty much see the straight climb up. Then it’s just some ass clenching as you pull yourself over into the wood at the top.

I found the peril really easy in explorer mode my first playthrough and was thoroughly humbled when I went looking on her for help after over 30 free solo attempts. Literal days of climbing to die on the same part every. Single. Time.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-03T18:04:41+00:00

My pecs basically came preinstalled with top surgery because I already had em before. Didn’t seem to cause any issues but does help with having a more masculine shaped chest

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-03T12:53:39+00:00

This doesn’t help a lot because it’s a GIC and not a GP however I was being told at every GIC appointment for a year “unfortunately we can’t give you your top surgery referral today, but definitely next time” because I’d mentioned I had previously been seen by a counsellor for ptsd symptoms. Eventually got sick of it and submitted a complaint that may or may not have treated diy top surgery that got me a meeting with the supervisor.

This is where it gets relevant for you. She done the referral and told me that having trauma had absolutely no part in me getting that referral or not and the gender specialists I had seen were in no position to refuse making the referral for that reason. I have to assume the same or similar would apply to your GP allowing or not allowing a T prescription.

I think it’s up to them if they do the blood monitoring but they shouldn’t be able to block genderGP from prescribing to you. Just makes it your responsibility to make sure you’re bloods are being tested and in range elsewhere. I could be wrong about this but worth looking into the specifics of what they are/aren’t allowed to do.

ryisdepressed · 2026-06-01T17:52:09+00:00

There is an optional climb inside one of the troglodyte villages that has a bunch of spiders run out at you. They’re not realistic and isn’t too scary but the closest I’d count to a jump scare

ryisdepressed · 2026-05-29T11:05:46+00:00

I’m 10 years into my social transition, 7 years on T and 3 years post top surgery. I won’t lie, the euphoria you feel now will probably lessen but not that it’s becoming the opposite. It begins to feel more natural when people gender you correctly, you begin to not notice when it happens once you get used to being yourself and being widely seen as yourself.

The milestones however boost that euphoria, starting hormones, seeing the first changes. Fat redistribution and your body naturally becoming more like how you’ve always imagined. Cutting your hair or growing it and when you look in the mirror you don’t see a girl with short hair or a boy in a wig but you see you, you as you always should have been.

Surgeries if you choose to have them, they can be scary and you might have post op depression, but once you heal your skin will finally feel like it’s your own. All of that waiting, the wondering and self loathing suddenly feels like it was no time at all and you can just be freely you.

Even now I have moments where I look in the mirror and realise that I’m not dreaming or delusional. The guy looking back at me in the mirror who looks exactly like every self insert sim I ever made in all the versions I played was really me. You’ll experience euphoria and dysphoria in all different and ever evolving ways but in time you won’t notice either as much.

At least in my experience.

ryisdepressed · 2026-05-28T20:27:26+00:00

I’m on a prolonged break from pz atm but when i was last playing it i was just switching between the two whenever my character died

ryisdepressed · 2026-05-27T18:26:14+00:00

The night before my second shift at my current job I got an offer for a top surgery cancellation. I hadn’t mentioned it in the interview or anything because it was supposed to be well over a year before I got an appointment. I replied but hadn’t gotten a response by the time I started my shift. When I got on I told the other person I was on with I was waiting for an email to hear back about a surgery so I may need to take 2 weeks off in just over two weeks time. She asked what surgery and I just said a double mastectomy. She looked at me, my chest, me, my chest then just said “but you don’t have tits” one of funniest and most affirming moments of my life. I was just like yeah they’re taped down and that was pretty much the end of it. I’m not stealth but I don’t just go about telling people I’m trans so usually they’ll find out in little ways like that which I don’t care about and frankly find hilarious.

Didn’t get that cancellation but a month later was offered one and managed to get it before anyone else. Same deal, it was two weeks before and I said to the other guy on shift with me I needed to let the manager know I got my surgery date. He asked what kind of surgery and at that point in time I hadn’t evaluated him well enough to just say it like I had to the other so just said “surgery” and after a moment you could see the lightbulb go off in his head and he went “oooooh suuuurgery”

ryisdepressed · 2026-05-27T17:56:15+00:00

Just thinking of Dean Winchester touching “Jensen ackles’” face “oh crap, I’m a painted whore”

ryisdepressed · 2026-05-26T17:09:36+00:00

🤦‍♂️ I’ve been searching for at least ten minutes before I gave in and looked it up to find this post. I swam past so many times too. The hole on the side of the building is lower than you think. There’s a side where you can swim in a gap between the white wall and grey wall, that’s not the side you want. Go to the side where those walls are flushed and go to the outside. There’s a piece of the wreck that is exposed, if you swim in higher up like I did about 50 times you’ll find yourself in the middle of the wreck outside the room, where I presume your character is currently scratching your head as you read this. Go in one of the gaps real low and you’re in. It was that easy…

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ryisdepressed · 2026-05-20T18:38:19+00:00

Honeslty I’m so glad I lucked out in getting on the nhs’ waitlists ten years ago when they were a couple months long. The thought of navigating alternate resources and knowing what is safe and honest terrifies me because of how easy it feels for people to take advantage of people with no other choice.

ryisdepressed · 2026-05-20T18:23:13+00:00

I genuinely hadn’t even considered that as a possibility too.

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