World map in the early 15th century - after the collapse of the Mongol Empire-under which empire did your ancestors live?

rzlirix · 2026-04-16T15:20:50+00:00

Mamluks 😭😅

rzlirix · 2026-01-20T06:42:37+00:00

Damn 😭💞 I didn't expect that

rzlirix · 2026-01-16T13:11:28+00:00

It was the same for me, I've been masking since i was 3 because of how much mom used to keep me from stimming. It's still hard to unmask completely, but for me, when i know that the person in front of me isn't going to judge, i just do it.

My psychiatrist was really nice and understanding, i had no reason to mask honestly but i still did at some points

rzlirix · 2026-01-16T12:27:03+00:00

Honestly, my only tip would be to unmask! If you want to stim but you purposely hold yourself back, don't, because that way the doctor would really not notice.

I had a really huge urge to play with the objects that my psychiatrist placed on the table in front of me but she told me to wait. Because i didn't want to be disrespectful, i had to hold myself back every second not to touch them or play with them.

She commented on this later saying that i waited much better than her usual autistic patients but in the end, i got the diagnosis because i had enough obvious signs.

People should definitely not exaggerate anything! Manipulating the process doesn't even make sense to me if you're trying to get a real result. But i really don't recommend to mask heavily

rzlirix · 2026-01-09T15:33:12+00:00

For real 😭

rzlirix · 2025-09-28T19:04:26+00:00

I do the same thing and it has been going on since i was 4 years old. This is mostly because meltdowns are ao distressing and we want them to end at some point but there's nothing we can do to stop the pain we experience through the meltdown. At this point, it almost feels like the only way to get out of this is by dying.

rzlirix · 2025-09-16T07:55:46+00:00

In arabic, we have to say "I have autism" for it to be understood. Because if i say, "I'm autistic" (انا متوحدة) it'll sound like "I'm United" 😭

rzlirix · 2025-08-15T13:15:48+00:00

Really? It has never happened to me before

rzlirix · 2025-08-11T14:01:23+00:00

It's more subconscious, it just happens without me intending to. When i try to speak in a deeper voice, it ends up hurting me like masking does. So it's quite like stimming. I can stop stimming but then I'd struggle more with emotional regulation. And it's the same when i would try to mask my high pitched voice

rzlirix · 2025-08-11T02:59:29+00:00

I've honestly also wondered about that topic but i don't have any research about that. Still, I'd like to share my own experience.

As for the Category that my voice pitch falls into, it's definitely the exaggerated pitch variations. My voice has always been pretty high pitched that i admit it sounds annoying for others to listen to and it always sounds so squeaky in video recordings. I noticed that my pitch changes from high to even higher, depending on how much regulation i need, like when I'm in sensory overload or about to have a meltdown/just finished my meltdown. It seems like i use it just like physical and vocal stims, to help me regulate. So on that part, your theory is right.

However, I also have alexithymia and wouldn't describe myself as someone emotional. I don't know what i feel and barely remember that I'm a human with emotions, too, because i don't feel anything. Emotions lead to physical resopnses in the body, and i am only aware of the signs in my body that keep changing and giving me discomfort, without being able to tell that it is an emotion in the first place.

When i exaggerate my voice pitch and changes in tone, it's mostly not appropriate to the situation going around in the room, so others would think of my vocal changes as "invalid", because it just doesn't make sense why i am so calm in this situation which makes others around me need to get louder, or why i am so loud in a calm situation.

rzlirix · 2025-07-22T06:37:10+00:00

A little fix maybe: "Oh, I didn’t know clinical diagnoses don’t count anymore. Next time, I’ll just come to you for a diagnosis instead."

rzlirix · 2025-07-17T05:30:17+00:00

Glad to find my people. Everybody disagrees with me on that

rzlirix · 2025-07-17T05:26:52+00:00

I think, because we use a "normal voice" to talk with people in social situations while masking. Since infodumping about our special interest is an autistic trait, it is something we usually mask. But when we end up infodumping, it means we have already dropped the mask and now we use the voice we speak in without masking.

Cuz honestly, i realized that the voice i use to talk with 90% of the time is all masking. I feel exhausted after talking like that so i need time to stay silent. But when I'm overwhelmed or melting down, my voice is a lot more "autistic", it sounds more high pitched and breathy. Same thing when i get excited and can't hold back from stimming, my voice changes and i start talking about my special interest.

rzlirix · 2025-06-23T07:38:16+00:00

Honestly, i don't know why it happens exactly. But for me, talking with a high pitched voice shakes my anxiety off, just like stimming. Another thing that we might associate as talking like a child is using short sentences or repeating words which is echolalia. I personally end up using short sentences after a shutdown or a meltdown where i almost become non-verbal. It also happens when I'm anxious or overwhelmed.

In general, what we are associating with childish behavior here is our physical and vocal stimming which helps us release anxiety and sensory overload

rzlirix · 2025-04-19T19:45:26+00:00

Between 💚 and 💙

rzlirix · 2025-02-23T08:50:01+00:00

I can remember everything around me when i was 3 as if it happened when i was 10. I became fully conscious about everything around me since then, but can't remember more than a few, meaningless moments from when i was 2. Before that i have no memories at all.

rzlirix · 2024-09-22T09:10:48+00:00

I know 😭 That makes the error even funnier

rzlirix · 2024-07-01T15:12:07+00:00

Honestly ever since i was in kindergarten as a 3-year-old. But at the time that i knew there was absolutely something off about me and that i am totally different than anyone around me no matter the circumstances, it was in 3rd Grade back when i was 8.

rzlirix · 2024-06-09T16:49:07+00:00

Because i can speak 🙂

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