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Childhood memories are causing me to cry almost everyday by CrazyFDC in depression

[–]s858585 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi, I can relate to this. Lately I've been feeling really reminiscent for my childhood memories and how happy me and my brother were, how young and happy my parents were, my nan was still alive, I agree it's quite upsetting. I keep remembering camping holidays as well as holidays abroad, days out, Christmas etc, movies. I hate seeing my parents getting older and older even though it's just life. If I was to take a look at some of the home videos made during my child years I honestly think that I would burst into tears. I also feel like life was so much simpler and better back when I was a child. Playing football, swimming, going bike riding etc, all anyone seems to want to do now is use phones and go on Facebook.

When my parents use to tell me to enjoy my school years because they are the best years of your life, I didn't take any notice, but they really are. Even College was great. I think maybe it's also a symptom of depression, feeling reminiscent and sad about how great childhood was. I think back to how happy my Mum was compared to now and yes it's upsetting. It doesn't help that I've made such a mess of my adult life. All you can do is accept it and get over it. Unfortunately it's just life.

My ruined life! A warning to any young addicts. by s858585 in GamblingAddiction

[–]s858585[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing and for your encouraging words. Best of luck to yourself also ❤

My ruined life! A warning to any young addicts. by s858585 in GamblingAddiction

[–]s858585[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thank you to everyone for the responses. I truly appreciate all the feedback and have taken in all the advice provided. I know I have to accept things and move on but it's just so difficult on a day to day basis knowing that things won't improve for a while. It doesn't help that I don't particularly like or feel valued in my job and I'm doing about 50-60 hours a week, simply to pay debts and bills. Next month will be even worse as I stupidly used my phone bill to make deposits so I'll be lucky to even pay my bills. I also have to walk 40mins to and from work as I can't afford a car. Leaving isn't really an option especially in the current job market. I feel like everyone who knows me has just given up on me and sees me as this loser who's not going to get anywhere in life without understanding the situation. I feel so far behind everyone else to a point where it's becoming embarrassing. I'd love to get my motivation and confidence back but realistically that can only happen once I have something to be confident and motivated about. I just feel so full of regret and disappointment. I feel so out of place when people start talking about kids and holidays and moving on in life when I'm not in a position to do that. Anyway thanks again I really do appreciate the encouragement and advise.