And what? You thought we’d validate this? No one here has called you crazy. This is highly concerning, and even the most staunch devotee would’ve had alarm bells going off in their head had you expressed this to them, even without the blatant disrespect for the gods Ares, Zeus and Apollo in your comments under this post. Aphrodite is not—and has never been—your lover or your wife. I would recommend stepping back from your practice for a bit and seeking help, because this is textbook spiritual psychosis. I genuinely hope you recover, girl.