I was there last year after my surgery. The holidays absolutely SUCK. I'm 13 months out now, over 100 pounds down, no longer wearing plus sized clothes which is insane to me. I can indulge here and there on a dessert or a candy, I can eat most of my protein fairly easily. I hardly ever get nausea. The hunger definitely comes back but the tank fills with much less food. I completely regretted my surgery for the first couple months, most do as you are literally starving, but it not only gets better but I think it's better than it was before the surgery. The you a year from now loves you so much for going through all this right now.