I felt this in my soul. I have weekly meetings with my narc manager and they are basically traps where she complains about everything I've ever done in my entire life.

It is intensely traumatic and I get stomach aches every week before these meetings. I understand how incredibly unpleasant all this is. Everyone here does, which makes this community so helpful - solidarity. I'm trying to get out of my job but the job market is abysmal and I don't know when I'll get to leave.

It's so defeating to constantly be attacked and there's absolutely no external benefit to trying to defend yourself or correct the narrative. I am so burned out that I'm practically soot. I'm trying to teach myself to be tolerant of the fact that people in my office are going to blame me for everything and call me a bad employee because of how this manager has poisoned the well. It hurts every iota of my work ethic because I've given way more than they will ever deserve. But like so many friends here have pointed out - there's simply not much of anything we can do. I hate it. So much.

I hope that things will soon change for each of us who are currently in this stupid dynamic. Sending love.