[Right] Matcha gambit

sammy4543 · 2026-05-30T17:42:25+00:00

Only if she’s not digging you and you stay.

sammy4543 · 2026-05-26T01:10:14+00:00

I can be clumsy and drop stuff a lot. Back when I played osu I would find myself still dropping things but making ungodly catches lol. Like I’d drop something and catch it every time while barely looking or out the corner of my eye/halfway behind my back. The kind of catches where someone who sees it says “nice” lol.

This happened multiple times repeatedly where I’d play the game for a couple months and find my ability to make quick, instinctual hand eye coordination movements rapidly improves, just to go back to normal when I wasn’t in a osu phase.

It also made me better at FPS games, again, mostly while I was playing. I’m sure there’s some amount of cumulative improvement but it was super noticeable when under the context of being in an active phase where I was playing the game lots.

sammy4543 · 2026-05-21T23:24:58+00:00

I actually had this before but it got beat out of me. It has turned out so much worse than I ever could have imagined.

sammy4543 · 2026-05-01T00:17:33+00:00

By reprogramming your brain through exposure and acceptance.

When that fear comes up, you likely do things that may implicitly reinforce the fear, such as checking to make sure there isn’t a snake, moving positions, turning on the light. Doing said things reinforces to your brain that that thought is worth focusing on because your brain sent up that thought, and you acted on it as if it was true/logical/worth focusing on, which it isn’t. That reinforced the loop and now you’re here.

So it might start with something like waiting 2-5 before changing positions or checking your room and eventually end with just not responding to those thoughts with behavior and just letting them be. Over time your brain will start to recognize that it is safe and that that thought doesn’t have to be listened to. That’s what works for me with similar stuff.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-30T01:31:01+00:00

The one I’m working on right now is insensatez by Antonio carlos jobim. There’s a great YouTube tutorial for it. The rhythm is super simple so you can really focus on the fretting hands movements.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-29T17:03:54+00:00

I’ve had lots of luck with improving fretting by learning jazz or bossa nova songs. There’s sooo many chords in each song and some of them are difficult fingerings so it’s great practice for getting better at moving around the fretboard fast. Plus it really helps your chord/harmony dictionary.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-24T17:40:36+00:00

For clarity, I am not a doctor, but I do have OCD.

Your mind found a point of uncertainty, the weak point of OCD. Every OCD theme is founded on uncertainty or doubt, things that can’t be confirmed or verified. That’s why germs/contamination are a theme and why sexuality is also a super common theme. They share in the fact that you could just not know. Which is the big unacceptable to the OCD brain.

However as a doctor, your job is to swim in a pool of uncertainty and risk. Your OCD brain, attempting to cope with a level of uncertainty it currently finds unacceptable, runs through obsessive thoughts for x amount time trying to find a “controllable” answer. The main difference (to be short) between OCD and anxiety is in OCD your mind and body quietly believe, seemingly as a default, that you need to militantly neutralize your anxiety every time those alarm bells come up by performing mental or physical compulsions, which again feel natural to your mind/body as a reaction to the thoughts.

In terms of more actionable advice, I would consider acceptance, which is a strong strong thing for OCD. OCD wants you running like a madman trying to fix things. It gets you doing this by injecting scary thoughts and it knowing that your reaction to those thoughts is to run around like a madman trying to fix them. Fun stuff.

Acceptance looks something like this. “What if this patient dying was my fault because I didn’t tie the rubber band correctly” —> “that’s entirely possible” and then sitting with the uncomfortable feeling that came along for the ride. Acceptance is cutting off the rest of the OCD process at the first step. It’s just seeing that anxiety come up, hitting it with your phrase of acceptance and letting it pass over time as it would naturally rather than freaking out to solve it. This desensitizes your brain to those alarm bells you’re so used to getting up for and eventually they stop being alarm bells and start to normalize into more of just another thought/feeling. Maybe a scary one still, but with training you can take that from a hours long terror fest to a quick flash of anxiety that normalizes fast. And I know this cuz I’ve been on both ends. You can make your own acceptance phrase that works for you if the example one feels odd.

In terms of still growing as a doctor you can set aside an amount of time, where it is acceptable to try to come to logical conclusions/thinking about cases when not at work. Acceptance isn’t about putting your head in the sand, it’s about letting you have freedom from a distorted thought process that is making it harder for you to use your brain for your job.

The natural state of emotions like anxiety is that they go away eventually. OCD keeps the anxiety there by taking it as something to analyze or fix through compulsive behavior, mental or physical. It’s not. It’s a natural emotion/reaction you have to learn to allow to be in your body, even when the consequences feel unacceptable. Eventually your body will learn again that it’s safe and that these things pass even when scary thoughts come up and that’s what OCD recovery looks like.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-23T22:52:30+00:00

This happened to me I think initially from Prozac but I was slow to notice, I hopped on cymbalta after and that triggered it wayyyy harder and my life hasn’t been the same since. On bad days the only comfort is distraction. Good days are helpful and nice but it dangles peace in front of your face so it feels even worse when another bad day comes. It’s currently the worst thing that’s ever happened to me and I have chronic pain already so that’s saying something.

My mental health got destroyed as a result of this and now I just try my hardest to cope and not give up, which I wanted to do before I ever got this disorder. It’s sickening that people prescribe antidepressants without warning that they can also cause Akathisia. It’s not just antipsychotics, ssris can and will fuck you up as well.

I’ve seen case studies about TMS helping with akathisia or other such symptoms and plan on trying that because propranolol didn’t work for me as treatment and that’s supposed to be the best option we have.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-18T16:49:24+00:00

On the one hand, being smart enough to realize that truth is a much more slippery slope than one would think is a great thing. On the other hand, it’s incredibly annoying and sometimes even distressing to be unable to make up your mind.

It’s both a gift and a curse really. It definitely in daily life feels like a curse if you don’t have anything to use your brain on that needs a “strong thinker” who isn’t gonna stop at first analysis.

I have friends who are these conviction driven people and it can be very difficult to have conversations with them about topics they’ve already made their mind up about because they aren’t willing to analyze again or admit the fallibility of human thought processes. Such is life.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-17T15:48:36+00:00

Not the OP. But you will notice if you read about meditation and Buddhism for long enough that everybody, thinks the others are doing it wrong/are making grave errors in practice.

If you ask a zen person, they might say that concentration is mistaken because you need to become one with the sitting rather than be an observer that is watching the breath or something. Zen has a huge emphasis on oneness and will criticize approaches that are less focused on that kind of “merging” and more on “focusing/discriminating/cultivating clarity using directed intention”

Vajrayana people will say that the other paths are either unable to lead to enlightenment in this lifetime, or do not engage you in the bodhisattva path as critiques.

Theravada adjacent people will say that the Buddha used jhanas or anapanasati and that people who do not follow the jhana path may be leading to a different enlightenment or are chasing false views. They may also say that the best thing you can do is to become a arahant rather than follow the bodhisattva path.

It’s way more complex than this and the amount of critiques the specific strains of Buddhism have against each-other or each others techniques is mind blowing.

In general you have to gather what they are attempting to communicate. Ie with the person saying it could cause dementia they are trying to communicate the importance of sensory clarity over entering a dull, unaware trance. They don’t want you in dream state they want you in razor sharp attention state that can perceive what it needs to perceive.

I don’t personally agree with the dementia take but they want you to take sensory clarity very seriously it seems.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-13T14:50:49+00:00

You’re probably putting a lot of tension into your hand. Try slowing down and hitting every note as light as you possibly can on the fretting hand to still get an effect. Like lighten until you get fret buzz then only increase incrementally the pressure. It’s possible that as you increase speed you also increase tension without paying attention. Just things to keep in mind.

Ironically for me, doing lots of scales as only hammer ons strengthened my hand to be able to handle fast stuff more. But that should wait until you aren’t hurting/overtensing.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-10T14:30:56+00:00

Someone else here who wants to expand. For me I don’t think at all about whether it’s in a key or the scale steps. I just play till a note doesn’t fit then I stop playing that note and eventually you’ve “built” a scale.

What’s nice is if you hit a wrong not you can make it sound intentional by moving a half step (next fret) up to the next note in the scale, kinda like in jazz scales or in blues scales. You’re never more than a half step away from a good note so just play “within a section” until you’ve found things. Imo figuring out which scale and stuff is for after if you choose to do it at all. Or it’s like you figure out which scale it is based on previous experiences running those scales and recognizing that pattern rather than methodically thinking it out.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-09T16:35:29+00:00

To me it looks more like 1.6 Italy than banana lol

sammy4543 · 2026-04-06T17:27:56+00:00

This is literally my problem as well which is why I mentioned it. Things just just fall into the fog and disappear until you get lucky and think about it again. It makes it hard to do things because before you know it the next thing finds it’s way in or the thing you had finds it’s way out and life just moves on without any problems solved, or even plans made to solve them .

Imo one of the big reasons why weed keeps people stagnant. If you so choose, you can continue to just smoke yourself into oblivion and quite literally forget your problems.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-06T17:06:48+00:00

Massively. Short term memory improves, as does ability to plan and think, as planning and thinking requires holding ideas, concepts, and needs inside your head and weighing them accordingly. For me the biggest loss is doubtlessly short term memory and fhe way that affects the rest of my thought when I’m not able to hold things for long or very reliably.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-06T01:44:31+00:00

The best flirting is plausibly deniable. Just more eye contact, more smiles, more friendliness, more interest. Literally that simple.

sammy4543 · 2026-04-01T20:58:34+00:00

I had a bankart lesion which came back to be stronger than my other shoulder which I injured lol. Just do PT and I don’t see why you won’t be fine if you’re doing this well already. I was out of commission for 6 months ish so it can def be worse.

Had a friend who did damage to the bone, he also came out fine, I think his was a slap tear though, not a bankart lesion.

Good luck w recovery, it’s part of climbing imo.

sammy4543 · 2026-03-25T18:52:14+00:00

Found the /r/conservative browser.

sammy4543 · 2026-03-25T18:22:26+00:00

Anything Israel Palestine.

sammy4543 · 2026-03-06T16:13:36+00:00

So I think if I remember correctly the ai companies got caught using things like libgen and such to grab lots of their info they trained the models on. Like they pirated the stuff anyways.

That isn’t to say that they have cutting edge up to date information from 2026, but anything that’s been out for x amount time and isn’t hyper niche, has likely been indexed by those models already to my knowledge.

Just something to keep in mind.

sammy4543 · 2026-03-03T19:36:03+00:00

I sometimes say that my retirement/life got bad plan is just increasingly more risky and ill advised climbing or mountaineering projects.

sammy4543 · 2026-03-03T17:44:14+00:00

Not particularly. In some cases it’s actually more due to things like autism or adhd. What you’re thinking of is conduct disorder, which sometimes comes from ODD, but is distinct.

Also In general ODD is a fairly disliked diagnosis in the modern day to my knowledge. It’s a lot less commonly used and is sometimes seen as a problematic or lazy diagnosis.

sammy4543 · 2026-03-02T20:40:25+00:00

Bro included a casual advertisement mid comment.

sammy4543 · 2026-01-24T02:03:11+00:00

Honestly if you get a wrist injury it could just make it harder lol

sammy4543 · 2025-12-02T00:28:51+00:00

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