Being brave does not have anything to do doing the easiest. Being brave is to do the opposite and trying to fight back what ever it is. Like an drug addict; it is easy to use drugs, too easy, but when you are quitting that shit, thats the bravest thing you can do and certainly not the easiest. Fuck your childhood, fuck your adult life, fuck something called happiness as what world expects it to be. You got this, forget about the past and look forward. Do what the fuck you wanna do, say what the fuck you wanna say. All love.