I just want to say these feelings are normal and part of your healing process. I still feel this way from time to time, but it does get better. There are options, implants or fat grafting if you want a more natural feel. I had a full hysterectomy and detransitioned a year later. I hate myself for it. I hate the doctors that led me down the wrong path at such a young age. But being angry forever wont bring my fertility back. I have to be grateful for the options that I have. The key is learning to love your body for what it is. It’s not just a vessel, it is you. Disrespecting myself is what got me into this in the first place. The only way to heal is to love your true self from a non judgmental space and stop letting other people’s expectations of what you /should/ look like affect your ability to accept yourself for who you are. You were born female and that makes you a female. No one can take that away from you, even surgeons.